Just one night, oh, just one call
Didn't think I'd get involved
But now I'm waiting for your messages
Every single night I wish that I could keep them all
I think that I'm about to fall
She held my heart; I gave it all
She took my hand and told me
"Everything is gonna be alright. I won't ever let you go"
But if I told you that I lied
You would never cry
Because our love and trust is only in my mind
And if I thought that you would try
I would never tell a lie
Because the only one I have is "I don't need you by my side"
I need you by my side
She said she didn't wanna take it serious
I wish I didn't let myself get too ahead of this
My head is melting when I think about the things we did
Like, how could I believe that she was really into this
It's hard to look at you and tell myself that "I'm alright"
I let myself get overwhelmed I lost control inside
It's not your fault, you were upfront, you said "it's not the time"
But I still let myself get lost in
If I told you that I lied
You would never cry
Because our love and trust is only in my mind
And if I thought that you would try
I would never tell a lie
Because the only one I have is "I don't need you by my side"
I let myself get lost inside my mind
I don't remember what I tried to find
I got too anxious, got too scared to try
And find somebody else to fill my
Darkest spaces
Need some medication
It's been hell, I'm jaded
Told myself it's patience but
No, I don't wanna be alone again
I need to find some kind of way to tell myself
That this is not the end
Oh
But, if I wait for you to love me, then
Than I'm just lying to myself and tryna
keep my heart from finding love again