Writer: Eddie Sin-X Tamez, Marcus Wicked-T Tamez, Krizz Kaliko
Composer: Eddie Sin-X Tamez
Lyrics
Yeah
This one goes out to my brother Matthew Braun
Rest In Peace brother
Let me take you on this journey
Watch out cuz this what hurt me
The day I lost my homie
How can I have a beautiful wife and a family yet I feel so lonely
I hide the pain inside
Deep down I wanna die
I keep fighting the urge but its a struggle just to stay alive
Oh, momma please don't cry
I knew it was his time
But I keep fighting these demons and depression and tell you all Im fine
Ain't nobody knew him like me
That's why I aint been getting much sleep
This pain just runs do deep
And time keeps ticking away
If I could get five minutes
I know just what to say
I dream of you all the time
R.I.P. big brother
You no longer have to suffer
I miss you everyday
That look upon your face
When you tell me everything will be ok
Now I'm all alone I wanna call your phone
Just to say whats up
Right I'm living rough
We two peas in a far out pot my best pal
Got no more to give no tears to cry don't want to live in fear
An I don't wanna live I don't want to die I just want to disappear
Yeah
FOREVER FOUR
I dont recognize myself
With this big hole in my heart
Losing my best friend my world is so cold and dark
Four shots in I'm just counting my blessings
I lost the only brother who ever really knew me
Now I'm on this road
Tryna find my soul
Its a struggle to go
They say silence is gold
Ill play that Sippin track just to hear your voice
They say time gets better
But Ill be hurt forever
And to tell the truth Im not really afraid to die now
My brothers got my back and its just a matter of time now
I never woulda thought that I would lose you so quickly
I'm riding solo but your spirit is right here with me
I feel like Adele when she said hello from the other side
Homicidal we gon ride
Got no more to give no tears to cry don't want to live in fear
An I don't wanna live I dont want to die I just want to disappear