When I wake up gotta dust myself off carry on look out
My patients has a minimum capacity im simple minded actually
I see the world in black and white but you dont see as I see
Due to the shh on tv theres an upper and a middle
And lower clss is me yall can have a laugh at me
But please give me a reason for this pain and confusion
These thoughts inside my mind I cant see past illusion
I wanna be a winner but it seems im always loosing
Minds dieing from the drugs that im constantly abusing
Using this anger I just cant handle
These aches and these pains leave my brain feeling mangled
Its hard to digest when its trapped in your chest
So I constantly push it to the back of my head
Were once feeling at your best but now im feeling vexed
Cah every time I see myself all I see is fcking death
If you have ever seen violence and its been close to home
Know that it is even closer when the house was your own
If your born into money then the benefits you reap
Is a good night sleep and always having food to eat
The basic necessities of life see I am outa sight
I am out of light so gimme me a direction
A clue and a knife you can catch me out at night
Every life is given but mine was taken right
So I aint taking sides but now hmmm
You cnts can rush and duck the fck out suck out
I run up in this game im stuck nowbut
Ima buck up in this dub like shes a slt ahh
I aint saying that im bad or I regret the life I had
I think its mad how I can come from nothing and
Still stand proud cah now I got alot so I floss
Like a boss beautiful mind ugly world its alot
Ive done some wrongs that need righting
See these songs I been writing
Aint ever been about taking drugs or doing jobs in tha night
Being anti social and yeah still im fighting
Cause I heard that finding peace with your demons
Will eventually enlighten is this just the beginning or
Very near the end of the world as we know it so
Lets not pretend ive heard it all before its 02 again
Each years the same oh wait what a shame whos to blame
Each day psses growing older im tired and im broken
My nights are getting colder home alone no ones to blame
No ones fault but my own with the weight of
Others peoples problems on my shoulder feel for a bullet
In the chamber and a gun out of the holster safetys off
Now im able cause the tables have turned now its me whos unstable never put down the weed fam I smoke a lot
I mean the thought of growing up but I thought id grown alot