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Suicide Zen Forgiveness

Lost a dear friend to suicide at 16, did not know what a lesson it would become. Now, at 66, I continue to appreciate the Best/Worst that keeps me living! I have learned that sharing your story can be a way to lighten your burden. My guests all have a story. Come listen in, it may be similar to your own story. You may find a helping of hope for you or someone who matters to you. In Season Two we branch out to cover mental health, depression, anxiety and all the myriad bits that make life as we know it.. challenging, some days more than others. Now in Season 3 with much gratitude... I believe in a #gratitudeattitude even on my bad days. I aim to improve 1% and that goal can be the difference in your today. Life is complicated. It can at times, be more than we can bear. Have you lost someone, or perhaps you have teetered on the edge… and are still hanging on… Join me as I talk to others with similar stories. When you share your story, your burden is lightened. That is my hope for you. Join me as we share the tips, tweaks and other bits that keep us here. Alive. Join me to learn to laugh at yourself. It's the most important tool to have to keep you going. When you mess up, when it all seems too much. it’s time for a #Failabration #KeepBreathing and make the best of your today, every day! No matter what happens... #ChooseLife AND Work on your #gratitudeattitude. #LiveInTheMoment it's the only thing we really have. #KeepBreathing


Michelle: "I Did Not Sign Up for This" Co-host, Mother Widow
Michelle is a widowed mom of 5 living in Calgary, Alberta.  Michelle was born in Ontario and moved to Alberta when she was 13 . Michelle studied professional cooking and worked in catering for many years; she then changed careers to banking. Michelle married her husband Anthony in 2008 and started their family. Michelle became a widow in 2019 when her husband died by suicide. Michelle is the co-host of the I Did Not Sign Up for This podcast available everywhere. Podcast: Website:   Instagram  ididnotsignupforthis.podcast 
66:19 09/27/2022
Physical Pain and Guilt: A Dangerous Combo
The Anniversary of the first botched surgery that led me down a deep well of agony. Not only from the physical destruction and damage, more devastating was the emotional pain of the people i loved, my family, on this torturous rollercoaster of will she or wont she survive...  No one could know that this, part one, was simply the foist in a long line of mistakes, that ultimately took the next two decades of our lives and in the end still affects my day to day living...  Andrea 'gift' has come into to play so many times... Now for the first time I lay it out, starting with this first pain-full anniversary account of Sep 13th 1983 the lead in and the beginning of the aftermath...  
26:20 09/20/2022
Lois Hollis Shame-Guilt: one of the most forbidden subjects.
Lois Hollis, RN, BSN. REV. shifts our opinion on one of the most forbidden subjects, shame and guilt. Her passion is to show the way to self-love by releasing shame guilt (not shame and guilt.) Shame and guilt reinforce each other to produce negative emotions such as anger, depression, anxiety, addictions, traumas, etc. They infiltrate our emotions with stealth precision that causes our struggles from low confidence to suicide. Depression, anxiety, 30 years of migraine headaches, and pain were Lois’ way of life until she learned about the dangers of shameguilt. She realized that shame guilt was within her anger, depression, migraines, rage, fears, and physical pain. The solution was to confront shameguilt.   She shares her 15 years’ experience as a ShameGuilt Educator, Counselor, Filmmaker, author to give us a way to health, wellness, and spiritual maturity. Lois began as a Nurse’ Aide at 12 and continues today at 78 to be a health advocate. Lois experienced spiritual encounters after severe childhood abuse.   Lois is a trailblazer. She developed one of the first Kidney Hemodialysis centers in the United States. Today, Lois brings shame and guilt together as a new field to study. She has authored three books and the 'I'm good' films. Her newest book, contains her Spirit to cancel the shame guilt hypnosis.   From Lois I’m a Trailblazer As a student and teacher, I am educating others on the dangerous impact of shame and guilt upon each of us. My I’m Good” Docu-series further illustrates how changing the shame/guilt system solves our mental health crisis. In 1964 as a registered nurse, I joined the University of Maryland open-heart surgical and nursing team. I modified my traditional nursing skills to meet the challenges of the new field of open-heart surgery. In 1966 I was a Nurse Entrepreneur. I helped establish one of the first kidney hemodialysis units in the United States at Thomas Jefferson University Hospital. I assisted with research, teaching, and consulting to support other dialysis centers. Before the availability of the hepatitis vaccine, I contained a hepatitis epidemic at Thomas Jefferson Dialysis Unit and developed protocols for hepatitis management in hemodialysis to other units. I co-founded the AANNT American Association of Nephrology Nurses and Technicians in 1971 to standardize procedures for hemodialysis nursing. With sadness and the resistance of colleagues, I left traditional medicine in 1980 for holistic health to save my daughters’ life and my own. I know firsthand the importance of healing and the spirit of living. I am blessed for extra years by overcoming heart disease, kidney dysfunction, brain traumas, rib fractures, and 30 years of migraine headaches. I had three miscarriages, but God gave me three beautiful daughters. Why I chose shame and guilt for study? Shame and guilt reinforce each other to produce negative emotions such as anger, depression, addictions, etc. Shame guilt harms our physical, mental, emotional, and spiritual states. Lack of knowledge and their secrecy gives them power. Connect With Lois @shameguilt_ __________________________________ Lois spoke of DR. DAVID HAWKINS here His map of Consciousness
36:21 09/06/2022
Dame Amanda O'Reilly The Story of Worthy Wands
Lifestyle Entrepreneur, Dame ( yup! she was Knighted), and the Creator of Worthy Wands, Amanda is the definition of confidence and empowerment. It took her realizing with deep inner work, that she didn’t feel worthy or enough in her own life, despite building multiple 7 figure businesses. Addicted to the DO of life because that’s how she validated her worth, she had to learn to reprogram her unconscious beliefs about herself and learn to BE. In doing so she created Worthy Wands. A collection of science-backed jewelry designed to rewire the subconscious mind and reprogram your DNA. To date, seven lives have been saved from suicide and this brand is making waves around the world reminding women, men, and teens alike that they were born worthy and are more than enough. Amanda says "Remember the creator gave you worth at birth!"  Your mind is your home... it is where you live.  keep your mind clean so you feel safe.  Connect with Amanda Websites - IG - where I am most active @amanda.oreilly @worthywands And Congratulations to Amanda on Worthy wands collaboration with lululemon. The Worthy Wands brand is more than a line of jewelry. It's an attitude. It's a movement. It's a belief system. We're using cutting-edge neuroscience + epigenetics + NLP to re-program your brain to work in your favor, and anchor in the truth.
54:45 08/30/2022
Suicide Prevention With Fiduciary Advisor Lawrence ‘Larry’ D Sprung CFP®
Lawrence “Larry” Sprung, CFP®, is the founder and wealth advisor at Mitlin Financial, Inc. Larry is also the host of the Mitlin Money Mindset™ a podcast that’s all about getting your mind right when it comes to all things money. One of Larry’s greatest passions is raising awareness for mental health. He spent over 12 years serving on the National Board of the American Foundation for Suicide Prevention (AFSP) and sits on its financial and investment committees.  As a fiduciary advisor, he and his team are dedicated to facilitating the customization of clients’ portfolios as they work toward reaching their financial objectives.   Larry and the Mitlin team prioritize clients first and consistently help clients make healthy financial decisions and offer a tremendous client experience that leverages today’s top tools and technology. Larry has appears on numerous podcasts and in the media speaking most recently on CNBC about money and parenting. He is also a member of the Experian Credit Chat panel and has presented to romance authors at numerous conferences, speaking about financial planning and business structure.    Larry has received several industry recognitions, including being named an Investopedia Top 10 Advisor in 2022 and a 2019 finalist for the Invest in Others For Community Service Award.   Outside the office, one of Larry’s greatest passions is raising awareness for mental health. He spent over 12 years serving on the National Board of the American Foundation for Suicide Prevention (AFSP) and sits on its financial and investment committees.    With his wife, Denise, he has raised more than $1.7 million for the organization through the Keith Milano Memorial Fund. The fund was created at AFSP in memory of his brother-in-law.   Larry values his family tremendously and his desire to do right by his wife and two sons drives who he is in and out of the office.    You’ll likely find Larry at any number of ice hockey events on any given weekend or excited for his wife to plan their next Disney vacation.  Connect on Social:    Larry Sprung,  CFP®  
33:32 08/09/2022
Let's Talk Stats and ...
A simple chat from Elaine, a look at the stats in Canada and a few suggestions and observations from where she's at...
27:37 04/26/2022
Cid Fernandez Suicide Attempt Survivor
Originally from Miami, FL 1st generation Cuban-American Mother born in Cuba Athlete and high school social butterfly Husband to Gaby Married at 19 yrs old Father to 2 teenagers Brianna 14 Caiden 13 Cecilia – Coming in Aug Joined Marines Corps in 2004 (18 yrs old) Deployed to East Asia Electrician on helicopters Joined Air Force in 2012 Flight Engineer Deployed to Middle East in 14’ Flew over 18 missions to Afghanistan Spent over 12 years in Aeronautics Traveled to 23 countries Fluent in 3 languages English Spanish Sarcasm Suicide Attempt Survivor In 2001 my parents went through a bad time with one another. The arguments got bad and my mom finally threw my father out of the home that year. During that time I lost the ability to play basketball due to terrible grades. For me Basketball was my form of expression and my therapy. When it was taken away, I hit a real bad point. Obviously perspective is huge in life, as a 15 yr old it felt that everything was caving in and felt the only way out was not being here. I’m thankful the rifle never went off and believe that there was higher calling for me. Since then I’ve dedicated myself to sharing my raw truth with the hopes of empowering others to do the same. These stories have become so tainted and looked at as non-shareable content, but honestly.. It’s time to quit that. Our truths aka our story, shouldn’t be frowned upon. We all come from different paths with similar rest stops and that’s where connection really flourishes.
66:59 03/15/2022
Michelle Cleveland Resilience & Resolve in the Face of the Unthinkable
Michelle Cleveland Resilience & Resolve in the Face of the Unthinkable Suicide within the Family  NTC Lifeworks was born out of a desire to help others benefit from what Michelle learned about resilience through adversity. In honor of Nicholas and Thomas her sons whom she lost to suicide. Born in Prague, but raised in the USA I grew up in two vastly different cultures. I married my college sweetheart, an Army officer, and began moving all over the US as well as a tour in Germany. Living in so many places and having experienced the different cultures helps me connect with people from all over the globe. As a mother and advocate for children on the Autism spectrum I know and truly understand the various learning modes and the importance of engaging with learners in more than one way. With over 20 years of sales and business experience I have a thorough understanding of many facets of work and business life. I’ve worked in the corporate setting as well as home based and have first hand knowledge of the challenges and benefits of both. With my diverse life and work experiences I not only bring a wealth of knowledge, but also a different perspective to training. Website Social
37:09 03/08/2022
Frank King Mental Health Comedian Suicide Prevention
Frank King believes "You can make a difference. You can save a life. I can show you how." In 2016 Frank King began coaching potential TEDx Talkers, when a number of his speaker coaching clients approached him and asked if he would coach them on scoring a TEDx Talk opportunity. Since then, those half-dozen clients have all done their first TEDx Talk, one of those is scheduled to do her second early in 2019, and four of them are also in the second round of auditions for DukeTEDx! Frank King was a writer for the Tonight Show for 20 years, and he holds the record for the longest non-stop comedy club road trip ever. Beginning the day after Christmas in 1985, he and his wife (who must have the patience of Job) were on the road 2,629 nights in a row, comedy club to comedy club and cheap motel room to cheap motel room, with no home, just a PO Box and voice mail. Along the way he worked with Jerry Seinfeld, Jeff Foxworthy, Ron White, Adam Sandler, Dennis Miller, Ellen DeGeneres, Rosie O'Donnell, Kevin Nealon, Bill Engval, Dr. Ken Joeng, Rita Sirleaf and Kevin James among others. Since becoming a public speaker on Suicide Prevention in 2014, he’s done five TEDx Talks, has another one scheduled for February, and he’s in the second round of auditions for DukeTEDx. Frank Cares  858.405.5653 Sites  Social Videos Born to Be Funny Mental With Benefits A Matter of Laugh or Death Suicide, The Secret of My Success
25:43 03/01/2022
Multiple Suicide Survivor- Now Thriver Herbie Mack
Herbie Mack is a multi-time suicide survivor, which led him to become a suicide prevention speaker. Herbie is also a mental health first aider, QPR gateKeeper, and the Just Believe Podcast host. The Just Believe Podcast gives insight into how people overcome their mental health challenges, seek professional help & provide alternative ways to tackle anxiety and depression.   Social Media Links   Instagram @hbmack Twitter @Hbmack Facebook Herbie Mack Suicide Prevention Speaker  
36:01 02/15/2022
Ottawa Under Siege What about Mental Health?
On day 11, Elaine discusses the effect the seige/occupation is having on peoples mental health here in Ottawa, the Capital of Canada with guest Sue Quinn, Photographer, Artist Mother of 5 grandmother of 9 and great grandson due anyday now.  
24:17 02/07/2022
The Lesson Learned
I've always been the 'Fixer' the 'one who gets it done' in the family, often within my other groups as well.  There are things we are not meant to fix. Learning that lesson can be difficult. The universe sometimes teaches with painful incidents in nature.  Humans, I believe, are the only animal that often needs to repeat the lesson before we learn.  Humbling to say the least. 
27:35 01/21/2022
Ted Warren Jazz Drummer About His Sister
Ted Warren has a solid reputation as a musical, versatile drummer. Join me as we talk about his sister who died by suicide. In fact, Ted Warren is one of Canada’s great drummers, along with fronting his own group Ted’s Warren Commission. Throughout the pandemic, Warren has been keeping musically active by performing solo drum concerts live on Facebook.  He is an active member of Canada’s jazz scene and has been recognized with Jazz Report’s Drummer of the Year award. He is also a well-regarded clinician and adjudicator.  Ted's own quartet,  Ted's Warren Commission, has released three  CDs, First Time Caller, Songs For Doug, and the recently released The Great  Regina Pizza Debate He is also member of Broadview, which he co-leads with  Rich Brown and Mike Murley. They released their debut recording, Two of Clubs,  on Addo records. He was the drummer for the Boss Brass and can be heard on  six of their recordings, including Velvet and Brass (with Mel Torme), From Lush to  Lively (with Oliver Jones), Even Canadians get the Blues, and The Boss Brass  Plays the Jazz Classics. Ted was also the artistic director for Kitchener Water loo’s Jazz Room for the first five years of its existence. In addition to his playing  and teaching duties, Ted hosts a popular music blog entitled Trap’d, where he  posts interviews with musicians he admires, and shares exercises and concepts.  Ted studied music at McGill and received a certificate in Jazz Studies from St.  Francis Xavier University and completed his B. Mus. from Thompson Rivers University. He recently received his Masters in Community Music from Sir Wilfrid  Laurier University. He has worked with many acclaimed performers, including  Slide Hampton, Bob Newhart, Maynard Ferguson, Lew Soloff, Chuck Mangione,  Jeff Healey, Norma Winstone, Sheila Jordan, Adam Nussbaum, Howard John son, Nick Brignola, Kenny Wheeler, Ron McClure, Doc Severinsen and Gerry  Bergonzi. Ted’s extensive touring has taken him to Poland, South Korea, Spain,  Brazil, Iceland, and Japan. He has also performed at Carnegie Hall with harpist Joanna Jordon. In addition to his other recorded work, you can hear Ted on Mike  Murley’s CDs Extra Time, and the Jazz Report’s Album of the Year recipient,  Conversation Piece. You can also hear Ted on the Juno Award winning Tales from the Blue Lounge by Richard Underhill. Ted’s recorded work also includes the video game Cuphead and CTV’s Bomb Girls. Ted endorses Headhunters drumsticks and Gretsch drums.
36:38 01/21/2022
Suicide Zen Forgiveness Returns
On the 27th of October 2021 we made the difficult choice to say good bye to my only sister, Carolyn.  We have been on hiatus since.  Now I talk about my sister and the accident that took her from us... Feeling powerless and unable to move forward. I went into stasis...
24:49 01/21/2022
Chris Michel shares his story
Coach Chris Michel joined Elaine to share his story about his younger brothers suicide and Coach Chris' tribute golf outing to his brother's legacy.   Chris told elaine, "The golf outing is called the Stryker Liker Open and was held on Oct 1, 2021.  We had over 28 foursomes show up and we were able to raise over $10k for the Stuff the Bus campaign that my brother was passionate about.  We will have another one in the fall of 2022."  Email: Personal Website  LinkedIn Coach Chris YT LinkTree
29:59 10/12/2021
Nancy Pickard - Bigger Better Braver
Always looking at other people’s lives, comparing and never feeling whole without a man at my side, I discovered that I never even considered what it was that I wanted. Little by little, that changed. I like the woman I am now – ready to play big and make choices for me, I no longer need to live a life based on what anyone else thinks. You can too – and it begins when you understand the beliefs that keep you in whatever life situation you are in now.  Ms. Pickard proves her methods work. She reinvented herself as a master life coach and climbed Mount Kilimanjaro at 61- experiences that became her vision for your bigger life. Not everyone must climb a mountain to live larger. Nancy Pickard is a Certified Integrative Coach through The Ford Institute for Transformational Training and the Levin Life Coach Academy. She is certified as a Breakthrough Shadow Coach, Empowered Parent Coach, Courage Coach, Healing Your Heart Coach, Leadership Coach, Holistic Lifestyle Coach and Bigger Better Braver Coaching. She is the author of the international best seller, Bigger Better Braver: Conquer your Fears, Embrace your Courage, Transform your Life. Prior to her work as a coach, she owned and operated a personal training gym called Tight Ends Inc. She knows what it takes to help people achieve big goals.  She holds multiple personal training certifications and has focused on health and wellness for almost 20 years. Her path towards coaching was a natural evolution—she has a BS in Psychology and an MS in Education. In 2017, she traveled alone in Thailand and Vietnam and undertook her biggest challenge, climbing Kilimanjaro at the age of 61. Coaching others to step out of fear and into bigger versions of themselves is her passion. She is the mother of two grown sons and an active grandmother to three beautiful granddaughters and a one-year old grandson. She is an avid hiker, biker, skier and yogi. She is passionate about her four-year-old Australian Labradoodle, Bliss.
42:27 10/05/2021
Laura Stack talks about Johnny
Laura Stack was best known in the business world for her professional moniker, The Productivity Pro. Her 30-year career as a keynote speaker, bestselling author of eight productivity books, and corporate spokesperson came to a screeching halt on November 20, 2019, when her 19-year-old son, Johnny, died by suicide after becoming psychotic from dabbing high-THC marijuana concentrates. Laura responded by forming the nonprofit, Johnny’s Ambassadors, to educate parents and teens about the dangers of today’s high-THC marijuana on adolescent brain development, mental illness, and suicide. Her platform now brings education, awareness, and prevention curriculum to parents, drug prevention conferences, community groups, and schools to stop youth marijuana use. She is a powerful speaker who brings Johnny’s personal warning and solid research together in her new book, The Dangerous Truth About Today’s Marijuana: Johnny Stack’s Life and Death Story. Described as a force of nature with unstoppable drive and unwavering purpose, Laura is determined to get teens to #StopDabbing. Learn More About Laura's mission and more...
31:17 09/28/2021
Lisa Sugarman's Story of Her Dad
A mom, a nationally syndicated humor columnist, a parenting author, a speaker, a 13-year veteran of her town’s school system, and a radio talk show host in Boston, Lisa gets it. All of it. First hand.  Lisa believes as parents, we need to be nimble and let our kids find their own path and make their own mistakes and learn to rise for themselves. Because the goal of parenting is to raise strong, capable, resilient humans who’ll thrive on their own.  Lisa's Links e: w: f: t: i: l:   Lisa Sugarman's Post on Sep 10 2021 Hello, friends. Here with a serious (and somewhat long) post that I hope you’ll all take a moment to read… Today is #WorldSuicidePreventionDay and I’d like to talk about that for a minute. My father Jim died by suicide two weeks after my 10th birthday in August of 1978. We were inseparable. He was my person. And his sudden death shattered me. At the time, back in the late 70s, suicide was heavily stigmatized, so my dad kept his pain from everyone around him, including my mother and our family. So no one had any inkling that his mental health was so precarious. And then he was gone. This is the first time I’ve publicly posted/written anything about his death other than the fact that he passed away when I was young and he was my hero. The reason for my silence is complicated. Suffice it to say, I didn’t learn the true cause of my father’s death until I was in my mid 40s. And it was at that point that I spent several years re-grieving that loss, processing the truth, and finding a path to forgiveness. Now, all I want is to share the truth of his mental illness and death with the hope of empowering others to ask for help. The only thing I will say is that I’m forever grateful to my mother for intentionally sparing me from the painful truth until I was at a point in my life when I needed to learn that story. The reason I’ve decided to start talking openly about my dad’s suicide now is because I believe the only way to help people who are struggling is by having open and honest conversations. It’s by asking questions. It’s by holding space. It’s by finding out what’s causing someone’s pain. And it’s by honoring that our mental health is JUST as important and in need of care as our physical health. Because, in one way or another, we’ve all been impacted either directly or indirectly by suicide. Either someone we love has died by suicide and we’re a survivor or someone we know has attempted to take their own life. Or, maybe we’re the one who made the attempt ourselves. In whatever way it touches you, it’s a powerful truth that there are people all around us who are in pain and suffering and lost. People who are struggling with mental illness who feel desperate and sad and alone. But we can help. We. Can. Help. We all have that power to make a positive impact on someone’s life simply by asking the question, “Are you ok?”. We just need to be paying attention and we need to start the hard conversations. Then we need to keep talking. Because together we can help #stopsuicide. So this is a reminder to each of you that I’m here to talk, to listen, and to help. If you’re feeling lost and you don’t know where to turn, please reach out. Please. Just DM me or email me at because I’m here to help. I’ve lost many people I love to suicide, including my dad, so I’m starting the conversation here and hoping we can continue it together. If you or someone you know is in crisis, please contact the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline '1-800-273-TALK (8255)'. Because you matter. Much love, L #WorldSuicidePreventionDay #mentalhealth #suicideprevention American Foundation for Suicide Prevention Suicide Awareness / Prevention
65:48 09/21/2021
David Jaques Mental Illness to Mental Health Advocacy
David Jaques - Navigating Mental Illness  to Mental Health Advocacy David is from London, England. He started his career at Barclays Bank, in which David specialized in the field of currency and interest rate risk management. He did that job in London and New York City, and re-located to Silicon Valley, California in 1994, where he worked as Treasurer of Silicon Valley Bank, the first CFO of PayPal, and CFO of various venture capital firms, including the venture arm of Nokia Corp. David loves startups and innovation, and has served on the boards of public and private companies in the US, Canada, UK and Australia. David is the board chair of Wedo and with his current focus in the area of mental health advocacy, Wedo has provided the platform for David to do that. Social media details: LinkedIn: Facebook: Twitter: @DavidJ42k Instagram: @davidj262 Clubhouse: @davidjaques  
30:30 09/14/2021
Self-Forgiveness The Final Frontier
Forgiveness it's worth its weight in gold.  Here is the best part of my story. Here, after decades, I have now finally forgiven myself.   Forgiving others doesn’t always come easy. Forgiving myself was almost impossible mostly because I didn’t even know I was supposed to forgive myself.  “Holding onto anger/ resentment/a grudge is like drinking poison and expecting the other person to die. “ Shame and guilt were the poisons that I drank.  Forgiveness is the greatest gift I ever gave myself.
30:59 08/25/2021
Martika Whylly Suffers Many Losses
Martika Whylly is an Author, Podcaster and Grief Counsellor. Her path to become a grief counsellor became clear sometime after she wrote the book Having fun with God. An autobiographical journey about death, loss and how she handled grief that transcended into peace of mind. Martika Whylly has studied with Ramtha - the enlightened one - for several years which led her to awareness and self-actualization. She enjoys sharing her experiences and hopes to inspire others to live a happy and fulfilling life. Martika loves music and lives in Ontario, Canada. Martika’s Resources Website: Email: Having Fun with God book on Amazon
30:33 08/17/2021
Seth Hoffman tells his story
Seth Hoffman: Grief Support Community Organizer | Orphan | Survive+Thrive | MSW | Elder Advocate | Writer | WFPB | NYC | Queer | Mindful | Lovingkindness | Grateful Seth says, "I lost my dad when I was 17 and my mom when I was 21. These losses sent me on a journey where I've fallen down and been picked up several times. And throughout these experiences, I always wanted to find people in my age group who could relate to me. So when I came upon this group in May of 2016 (when I was 24), I felt relieved when I went to a few meetings, and finally felt like people could relate to my experiences, especially through the context of young adulthood. This group has been one of the reasons I motivate myself to heal from and survive these losses. Being a young adult who loses a parent or both parents, makes this transitional stage of life harder to deal with. As young adults, we are facing new experiences that can shape the rest of our lives. Some of us are in school pursuing degrees. Some of us are working in the real-world. And some of us are doing both, while dealing with the obstacles of dating and living in shared spaces." Seth now heads up the Young Adults Who Have Lost a Parent(s) group on Meetup. It was founded as a peer-organized, supportive environment for young adults (20-39) coping with grief and loss, relating to the loss of parental figures.  
40:08 08/10/2021
Jaikishaan Sharma
Now an affiliate marketer Jaikishaan Sharma, shares his inspirational story and shares his wisdom and his newfound joy in life.  After a car accident, Jaikishaan was wheelchair-bound for nearly three years.  The rollercoaster of emotions, depression and anxiety sent his mind to a dark place. A baby daughter’s look lifted him out of that bad place and he chose life. The doctors told him there was less than a 5% chance that he’d ever walk again,” he changed that outcome and  In January 2019, he took his first step out of his wheelchair. From the Forbes article by Melanie Fine “During a particularly rough time in my life, my mother was paying all of my bills. If not for her, I would have lost my house. I was going through a lot of depression and anxiety, but everything changed when we had a baby girl come into our lives. One day, I was sitting in my wheelchair, and I saw my daughter playing on the floor. She was so happy and care-free. This fleeting moment in time stuck with me, and I knew that I had two choices: either do something or regret my entire life spent sitting in this wheelchair. It was time to dispel those feelings of negativity from my mind. From then on, I was more committed and driven than ever before,” Sharma explains. Jaikishaan's website
41:09 08/03/2021
Michele Bell The Grief Warrior
Losing a brother you only recently came to know, is as raw for an amazing death shaman as it would be for anyone. Michele shares her story.  "Dignity is not negotiable. Dignity is the honor of the family." Death is a topic that most people prefer to avoid in everyday conversation. But for death shaman Michele Bell, it’s a daily centerpiece in her life journey, one whose stigma she’s working hard to remove by Illuminating the topic that is so often hushed.  "I encourage a sturdy voice in the midst of a society that is in fear of feeling." For Michele, tucking death into a closet that’s not meant to be opened isn’t an option. She believes that life is precious right up to the very last breath, and those whose lives we lost require compassion, emotional support, and spiritual guidance at a time when its most difficult for their loved ones to provide.  “As a society, we’re uncomfortable witnessing other people’s emotional pain, particularly as it relates to death,” she explains. “We tend to shy away from conversations about death and with those who are grieving the loss or inevitable loss of someone special to them. We think we do this as a way to give them space and honor their feelings, but in reality, this can feel like abandonment and a lack of compassion.” Michele first acknowledged her path as a death shaman in 1996 when she volunteered as a hair and makeup artist at local funeral homes.  Later, n 1998, on the eve of her grandmother’s transition, she pierced the veil returning her back home. Michele had no words just a surreal moment during the ascension.  "It was the most glorious feeling of Unconditional Love. It was not a vision. I physically transcended and transitioned my grandmother to the other side as we elevated together into this tranquil place of timeless space." “All of a sudden, my body felt like melted butter,” Michele recalls. “I was in the most beautiful, serene place I had ever been, and I visionally saw many spirits. They surrounded, embraced, and supported my grandmother’s journey with the gentleness, knowledge, and guidance.” It was a moment that brought Michele divine peace. She knew it was a gift worth sharing with others, but in 1998, she only told one person. Slyvia Brown, world renown medium told Michele she would change peoples lives one day Recently, Michele shares,  "This title role, they call Death Doula confuses me. Selling a course to earn a certification is not relatable to my sacred gift. It’s not for me to say now ‘I appoint you a doula. but I can assure you, there are no written materials, we are connected by a common thread—serving the dying. And whatever the moniker, I've joined them openly. "Death is a fearful gaze for many. I feel so grateful to release that fear of the unknown to all I've transitioned through the years. Sometimes I even get to see my loved ones which is such a breathtaking moment." As a highly intuitive empath, Michele is using this gift to help guide people in their last moments on earth to a point of peace and comfort in crossing over. She also works with their family to help them navigate healthy grieving, something she feels helps their loved one’s memory live on.  “I work with individuals in a very personal, unique, and spiritual manner,” she notes. “I not only want to bring them comfort in their final moments, but also help them to embrace life right up until they're last breath.” Certified Mindfulness Practitioner Level I, II, III APA-American Psychological Association HFA-Hospice Foundation of America IMPA-International Metaphysical Practitioners Association EMPA-Energy Medicine Professional Association
51:55 07/27/2021
Suicide Ideation & Teenage Death Pact
Things look different from the lens of a teen. When there is no long-term outlook and the future seems outside the possible.  A look back at the beginning, as it turns out even earlier than I thought! 
00:31 07/20/2021
Lilly White a Mother's Journey and more
Lilly White is a five time Author, Host to  AAA (Angels, Archetypes, Astrology) workshops . She is a  certified Archetype Consultant, Angel Therapist, Reiki Master, Certified Medium, Mentor, Grandma and Soul Companion., based in Almonte, Ontario. Lilly has opened events for Caroline Myss, John Holland ,Mona Lisa Shultz , Andrew Harvey and others. She is presently studying with Dr Norm Shealy as a Medical Intuitive.   Her work has taken many on their own transformative spiritual journeys to Bali. These journeys are based on an individual’s unique experiences, attributes, and motivations. Personal transformation is about reclaiming our lives in ways that bring renewed meaning, energy and happiness to ourselves and others. We find what we are called to do, and how to access our inner fire and joy. Concurrently, aspects of ourselves and our lifestyle that no longer serve us are discarded. As we tap into our real selves - living our deepest values and ideals - we become connected with all of life. In May of 2012, tragedy struck the very fabric of Lilly's family with the death of their 37-year-old daughter, Melanie. That same week, Lilly's mother was diagnosed with stage four cancer and transitioned in October of 2013. In between those dates, her father had a stroke. At this time, Lilly had a business, The White Lilly clothing boutique, but it was clear that spirit was directing her elsewhere. It was time to close her store and move on. Lilly is a member of a 12 step group and friend of Bill W and Dr Bob.  If you ever need to reach out , she is available 24/7. You are enough , you matter.  May you have FAIRY DUST at your feet, LAUGHTER in your belly and JOY in your Heart. ~ Lilly White
34:25 07/13/2021
Al Levin creator the Depression Files Tells his Story
My name is Al Levin and I’m an assistant principal in a public elementary school.  I’ve been in education for over twenty years.  I’m married and have four children. I’ve  completed all of the coursework in working towards a Co-Active coaching certificate through the Coaches Training Institute.  The coaching work has allowed me to support the staff I work with in the public schools, as well as others who are seeking support in reaching their goals or working past challenging times in their lives. I am also a person who has recovered from a major depressive disorder, an illness that was quite debilitating for nearly six months of my life.  Through this experience, I have become very passionate about learning more about mental health and supporting others with a mental illness, particularly men with depression. In addition to this blog, I speak publicly for the National Alliance on Mental Illness (NAMI) and I tweet @allevin18. My latest project is a new podcast called The Depression Files. Summary of my story in Al's words Everything seemed to be going well, yet everything seemed to come crashing down. I had a decent job, a happy family, and a new house. It started in October and I knew my body was feeling different. I had been through one bout of depression three years prior (almost to the date), yet not nearly to the degree of what I was on the verge of. I made the decision to begin medication and started seeing a therapist. None of this was helping and I continued to slip. As my family doctor believed my situation was more complicated than he had originally thought, he scheduled me to meet with a psychiatric physician’s assistant (the quickest appointment I could get). This psychiatric PA switched my medication and had planned to monitor my situation. As I gradually moved into a deeper depression, I began to have crying bouts, I was struggling to interact with people, I could rarely eat anything at all, and I was struggling to fall asleep. I also started to have thoughts of suicide. My wife and I discussed the situation and, with consultation of the psychiatric PA, decided that I should take some time off from work. My medication was increased and the hope was that they would have a chance to kick in before returning to work. In hindsight, I do not believe that taking two weeks of unstructured time away from work was the best decision. I did not want to go out because I feared bumping into somebody I knew who would question my absence from work. My wife and I created lists of things we thought I could accomplish around the house the next day. Impossible. I couldn’t even begin any of the tasks that we had discussed. Although I struggled sleeping, I would lay in my bed, hours at a time, rolling around unable to sleep. Lying in my bed behind closed doors was one of the only places I felt safe. I decided I would attempt to go back to work for the one week before winter break, as a sort of trial period. Work was challenging and I found myself often isolating myself in my office, rather than being in classrooms. I would get home, manage around my four children until it was their bedtime, and then meltdown, uncontrollably sobbing to my wife at night. Not only did I continue to struggle sleeping and eating, but my suicidal thoughts became more frequent. At one point, I found myself searching suicide methods online. Another evening, I looked in a mirror, holding my hand to my head in the shape of a gun, analyzing the best angle for which to hold it. The crying bouts continued. I eventually created a plan to take my own life, thought about it often throughout the day and even dreamt about it one evening. This scared me very much. I knew that I needed more help and at this point felt that I had been screaming for help and nobody was listening. I asked my wife and sister to join me at my next psychiatric PA appointment for support. The three of us essentially convinced the PA that I needed to take time off from work to enter a program for recovery. I took three weeks off of work in order to enter a partial hospitalization program. I spent my days in the program and my evenings at home. While this was a huge jump-start to recovery, there was still a long road ahead. Now, approximately two years after having gone through this major depressive episode, I continue to maintain a lifestyle that will support staying mentally fit.
42:09 07/06/2021
Victor Janzen Shares his Adventure
THIS IS VICTOR JANZEN Mental illnesses, mental health & addictions community reforms advocate, outside his day job as a project manager in the technology sector, mental illnesses activism is important to him & his family. He resides in Ontario Canada. From Victor:  First things first. The American DSM-IV psychiatric manual states: “it is a disorder characterized by the presence of two or more identities or personality states that recurrently take control of the individual’s behavior accompanied by an inability to remember important personal information … it is a disorder characterized by identity fragmentation rather than a proliferation of separate personalities” [24]:529 (Read more: Okay now that the boring stuff is out the way… are you prepared for my perspective of living with this? I will attempt to share the good, the bad and the ugly of this disorder. I would like to make this clear from the onset… DID is not something to be afraid of and must not be discouraged to have conversations about. It must be noted … Hollywood sometimes embellishes their interpretation in order to keep you in their seats and sell a good story on this topic. My DID was discovered late in adult life probably because at eighteen years of age I decided to bury my entire childhood trauma for thirty years. Now my official or primary diagnosis is CPTSD, DID and BPD (if you do not know these acronyms Google DSM for a definition). I will go on record to say that there are a lot holes in my past memories from all aspects of my life. For most people, this would be a little jarring and in the beginning of my mental illnesses adventure it was because I lacked the understanding in order for “all” of self could be understood. Considering as of writing this I have suffered nightly episodes for the past 33 weeks of self atomization on my four pillars (Emotional, Mental, Physical and Spiritual). These episodes last on average anywhere around two hours and beyond. The importance of mentioning this is I have often asked my circle of care whether these episodes are CPTSD “living” flashbacks, my DID cast of characters attempting to reintegrate with this version of conscious self or a combination of both. Well so far… we do not know what we know… LOL… it makes life with me quite the adventure at times. So let me introduce you to some of the cast characters and perhaps what I know of each. 1. HARAS – we have known each other for forty-five years. He is extremely intelligent, always listening (probably watching me write this paper without my knowledge) but violent towards me. From the perspective of outsiders, this would be called “self-harm” or “attempted suicide”. But I don’t see it that way because HARAS is not me. 2. The Beast – we have known each other just as long as HARAS – he is an animal of pure anger and rage with one target… me. Now the differences between he and HARAS are as follows – he has never tried to kill me and does not use weapons. 3. The Poet –Now to me he is an interesting cat. His poetry is interesting and according to others he is quite good. In this way, I am blessed with a unique ability to be used as a physical vehicle for this entity to express himself through poetry. I will share some of his writing later. 4. The Warrior Chief – his age is unknown; he is a wise old aboriginal man who comes to me through visions in my dreams or through is words via emails… again sent to my circle of care without my knowledge and the only way I find out is certain members of my circle of care send them back to me for my review… to be analyzed, processed and reflected upon. 5. Little Victor – with this one it is difficult to state how many there are… nevertheless what I anticipate is they are of various ages (between four and eighteen) and of multiple emotional states (Angry, Sad, Brooding etc…) all representing certain traumatic events throughout my childhood. Perhaps you are wondering how this makes me feel? After long deliberations and considerations, I find myself radically accepting that this is my norm. It is true the body does keep the score on all four pillars (Emotional, Mental, Physical and Spiritual) to a certain degree. I used to think this as an annoyance and it made me quite angry and ashamed; however, now I embrace it. I want to know more. My cast of characters exists for a purpose as antagonists, protectors and teachers. I am always learning from the anger, the beautification of wordsmithing, and from my nightly episodes. All of this has given me several opportunities to change my perspectives, give a sense of purpose and most importantly it allows unconditional and absolute freedoms to truly understand freedom from judgments and prejudices so self will be understood. Lastly, the only time I have been completely concerned for my wellbeing occurred recently (within the last month or so) when ALL my characters came out to play at once where the Beast and HARAS decided to attack us all. I will tell you the physical manifestation was an ugly and disturbing thing to witness; however, it was the first time this version of self was able to hurt HARAS… sent him and the beast retreating into the darkest of dark shadows within me. Overall, I take that as a win, yet I can never let my guard down as he will return once again to claim my head, but this time he is in for a fight as I made a promise to my supporters and circle of care, I WILL fight for every sunrise. Through my circle of care, we are working towards the goal of integrating these streams of consciousness into Victor so I can relate to them in a healthy way. So that I can begin to live a good quality of life. A life without expressing myself through this cast of characters and instead, I will be ONE with the pain and trauma from my past. Victor is kind, intelligent, hopeful, caring, and compassionate – and that is enough. #ChooseLife  #KeepBreathing  #NotToday  #gratitudeattitude
49:58 06/29/2021
Réal Andrews shares his Champion Story
Emmy winning Actor, Author, Speaker & Transformational Coach After completing the Hawaii Ironman on two occasions, Réal found he had a passion for physical training. Creating Champions, through sharing his experiences, workout secrets and developing strategies to help every person he encounters succeed in achieving wellness within the mind, body and spirit. Specializing in a variety of fitness and exercise focuses, Réal has created quality programming for individuals and groups with the goals of increasing self-esteem, transforming physical fitness and changing lives in a way that no other fitness professional has been able to accomplish. Réal says "At the heart of it all, I dedicate the most time, energy and the whole of my heart to my family and carve out special time for each of my children. I live by the motto, “They will become who you are” in everything I do. I realize that the future lies with what we teach our children and how they view their role models in this world, so I also donate time to working with local non-profit organizations whenever possible." Réal thrives on taking his message and formula for whole health on the road. Through speaking engagements and motivational experiences, he shares his whole health wisdom and knowledge with the world! Along with spreading the word across the country, Réal has started writing a book detailing the story of his life and the choices that led him to where he is today: a Champion for health and a hopeful guide of those who seek whole health and wellness.
43:54 06/22/2021
Rex Steven Sikes A Story of Transformation
My guest on this episode is Rex Steven Sikes, First let me say, Rex has a wealth of knowledge and a wonderful giving heart. Rex is an actor, director and acting coach, He is a licensed and certified B.A.N.K.Code Trainer, a Master Trainer of NLP/DHE, and a Master Hypnotherapist and Hypnotist. Rex founded IDEA Seminars, and is  creator of Mind Design™, the Attitude Activator™, and Directed Questions™. Rex is a thought leader, He's dedicated four decades to helping countless thousands of people globally transform their minds and lives. His book "LIFE ON YOUR TERMS: Live The Life You Want" Teaches you to stop losing out and start winning. Those are only part of Rex’s endeavours.. Rex is joining me on this podcast because, he too, is a suicide survivor. And this is his story of transformation
49:50 06/15/2021