In 2018, Rosie Gill-Moss’s life changed forever. Her husband, Ben, died suddenly in a scuba diving accident, leaving her widowed at 37 with three young children. Overnight, she found herself in a world that seemed to have no roadmaps for the reality she faced. Conversations about grief felt shallow or filled with empty platitudes, and practical guidance was hard to find.Rosie created Widowed AF because she knew others were out there, feeling just as lost and alone. She wanted a place where people could talk openly about grief, share their experiences, and find support without judgment or sugar-coating. What started as a way to process her own loss has grown into a global community, providing honest conversations about what it really means to lose someone you love.Each episode of Widowed AF focuses on real-life stories, bringing in guests who share their unvarnished experiences with grief and loss. Topics include the practical side of widowhood—managing finances, raising grieving children, or navigating a new identity—as well as the deeply personal challenges of coping with anger, loneliness, and even the unexpected moments of joy. Rosie also invites professionals, advocates, and others who offer useful perspectives for listeners trying to rebuild their lives.At its core, the podcast exists to show that while grief is deeply personal, it’s also a shared experience. Widowed AF isn’t about offering easy answers—it’s about helping people feel less alone and providing tools and stories that might help them along the way.
In this episode of Widowed AF, host Rosie Gill-Moss speaks with Sophie Ransom from Suffolk. At 25 years old, Sophie's fiancé, Paul was killed in a motorcycle accident when she was 17 weeks pregnant with their daughter. Now 27, Sophie shares her experience of widowhood at a young age and the reality of navigating pregnancy, birth, and raising a child on her own.Sophie recounts meeting Paul at 19, marrying at 24, and becoming pregnant shortly after their wedding. She describes their last evening together sharing a Colin the Caterpillar cake before Paul's fatal collision with a lorry while riding to work the next morning. The conversation covers Sophie's experience of learning about his death, attending hospital appointments without him, and giving birth via emergency C-section without Paul by her side.The episode addresses Sophie's thoughts of not wanting to continue living without Paul and how her daughter Poppy gave her purpose. Sophie discusses practical aspects of her situation, including her approach to telling a child about a parent they never met, reading "I Have an Angel" nightly, and moving away from their shared home. She also shares her process of working through anger toward Paul, connecting with others in similar situations through WAY (Widowed and Young), and finding happiness again 18 months after his loss. Topics: Young widowhood, pregnancy after loss, parenting after loss, motorcycle accident, sudden death, raising children who never met their parentConnect with Us: Follow us on Instagram @widowedAF Email: theshow at widowedAF.com Web: (https://www.widowedaf.com) Watch on (YouTube)
3/24/25 • 71:28
In this episode of the Widowed AF podcast, host Rosie Gill-Moss speaks with Mark Heazle, a widower who shares his experiences following the death of his wife, Sharon, from a rare form of cancer. Mark discusses the practical aspects of navigating life as a single parent while managing grief. He provides insights into the challenges of parenting after loss, including the dynamics of raising children in a blended family setting.Mark details the process of advocating for his wife’s health during her illness, highlighting the importance of understanding medical conditions and the healthcare system. He addresses the impact of cancer on family life and the necessity of mental health support for both himself and his children.The conversation also covers the significance of support networks, including family and friends, in coping with loss. Mark shares how these relationships have played a role in his life and the lives of his children. He discusses the balance between remembering a loved one and moving forward with life, including how to acknowledge significant dates such as anniversaries and birthdays.Listeners will gain practical insights into the realities of widowhood, parenting, and the formation of blended families. This episode serves as a resource for those who are widowed, as well as for individuals who support someone experiencing loss.Connect with Us: Follow us on Instagram @widowedAF Email: theshow at widowedAF.com Web: (https://www.widowedaf.com) Watch on (YouTube)
3/10/25 • 66:28
In this episode of "Widowed AF," host Rosie Gill-Moss engages in a conversation with Rachel Hart, who shares her personal experience of losing her husband to suicide while she was pregnant. Rachel discusses the profound impact of this loss on her life and the complexities of navigating grief during such a pivotal time.The episode addresses the stigma surrounding suicide, highlighting how it affects the grieving process and the perceptions of those left behind. Rachel emphasizes the importance of mental health awareness, particularly in understanding the signs that may precede such tragedies.Listeners will hear about the challenges of parenting after the death of a partner, including how to communicate the situation to children in an age-appropriate manner. Rachel reflects on her own experiences and the support she received from family and friends, illustrating the critical role of support networks in coping with grief.The conversation also touches on the process of finding love again after loss. Rachel shares her thoughts on the complexities of entering a new relationship while still navigating the emotions tied to her late husband.Throughout the episode, Rachel provides insights into the realities of widowhood, offering a candid perspective on the ongoing process of healing and the adjustments required in daily life. This episode serves as a resource for those in the widow and widower community, providing factual information and relatable experiences.Connect with Us: Follow us on Instagram @widowedAF Email: theshow at widowedAF.com Web: (https://www.widowedaf.com) Watch on (YouTube)
2/26/25 • 56:17
In this episode, Rosie welcomes Andrew Medlycot to the studio for an open and insightful conversation about how life can change in an instant. Andrew shares his personal journey, from facing a life-altering cancer diagnosis to navigating the ripple effects it has had on every aspect of his world.Through this conversation, Andrew reflects on the unexpected ways that cancer reshaped his priorities, relationships, and outlook. He discusses the challenges of accessing healthcare when time is of the essence, the importance of a supportive family, and the emotional and practical adjustments required to adapt to a new reality.Andrew also opens up about living with undiagnosed ADHD, how it influenced his life before he even knew about it, and the transformative impact of finally receiving a diagnosis and treatment. He looks back on his past with a new perspective, identifying moments and patterns that suddenly make more sense.Key topics discussed in this episode include:•Adjusting to sudden, life-altering circumstances.•The struggles of accessing healthcare when waiting isn’t an option.•The value of family support during difficult times.•Living with undiagnosed ADHD and the transformation that comes with diagnosis.•Reflecting on the past and how new insights change our understanding of it.Whether you’re navigating a major change yourself, supporting someone close to you, or simply curious about how others adapt when life throws the unexpected, this episode offers practical reflections, candid insights, and a grounded perspective.Tune in to hear Andrew’s story and discover a conversation that’s as thought-provoking as it is relatable.Connect with Us: Follow us on Instagram @widowedAF Email: theshow at widowedAF.com Web: (https://www.widowedaf.com) Watch on (YouTube)
1/23/25 • 71:07
In this episode of Widowed AF, Rosie and Jonathan Gill-Moss welcome you back for more insight from the frontline of widowhood. The couple discuss the challenges of managing family life, high expectations and grief during the festive season. They share their recent Christmas trip to Jamaica, which included unexpected complications, and a trip to hospital. Hear how their grief has changed over time, in ways they didn’t expect, and how important the telling and sharing of stories is for restoring hope. What to Expect in This Episode:Handling holidays as a widowed parentBalancing traditions and creating new ones in blended familiesPractical insights into managing unexpected crises while grievingHow grief evolves over years and its impact on daily lifeThe value of open conversations and support networksResources Mentioned:•WAY – Widowed and Young•The Ollie FoundationConnect with Us: Follow us on Instagram @widowedAF Email: theshow at widowedAF.com Web: (https://www.widowedaf.com) Watch on (YouTube)
1/15/25 • 35:40
Feeling festive? In this episode, Jonathan and I are sitting down for a Christmas catch-up to wrap up two incredible years of Widowed AF. We’re taking a moment to reflect on what the podcast has meant to us, the changes we made this year, and—most importantly—the impact your messages and feedback have had. Honestly, we couldn’t do this without you.We’re chatting about life as a blended family (it’s messy, but we wouldn’t have it any other way), the emotional challenges of recording episodes, and how we navigate grief during the holidays. It’s not always easy, is it? But you’re not alone in it—we’re right here with you.We’ve also got some exciting plans brewing for next year, and we’d love to hear from you. What do you want to hear more of? What’s helped you most? Drop us a message and let us know. In the meantime, grab a mince pie, pop on your cosiest socks, and join us for this warm (and slightly rambling) end-of-year chat.Chapters[00:00] Festive Welcome[07:15] Blended Family Life[12:45] Grief During the Holidays[22:30] Looking Ahead to 2025[28:15] Closing Thoughts and Festive Farewell Connect with Us: Follow us on Instagram @widowedAF Email: theshow at widowedAF.com Web: (https://www.widowedaf.com) Watch on (YouTube)
12/19/24 • 40:54
Episode OverviewContent Warning: This episode discusses themes of murder, trauma, and grief that may be triggering for some listeners.In this episode of Widowed AF, Rosie Gill-Moss speaks with Katrina Smith about the traumatic night her husband was murdered in their home. Katrina shares her harrowing experience of losing her husband, Josh, during a home invasion, exploring profound grief, loss, and trauma.The discussion not only highlights the emotional turmoil that accompanies such a devastating event but also addresses the failures of law enforcement in responding to domestic violence situations. Through her story, Katrina emphasises the critical importance of victim advocacy, providing listeners with valuable insights into the complexities of navigating life after such a tragedy.Episode Timeline[00:00] Introduction[00:16] Content warning and episode context[01:00] Katrina's background and relationship with Josh[05:00] The night of the murder[10:00] Police response and aftermath[20:00] Legal proceedings and frustrations[30:00] Healing and therapy[40:00] Advocacy work and support for victims[50:00] Reflections on love and lossKey TopicsThe impact of sudden lossThe role of law enforcement in domestic violence casesNavigating grief and trauma recoveryThe importance of victim advocacyPersonal growth and finding love after lossAbout KatrinaKatrina Smith is an advocate for victims' rights and a survivor of violent crime. She shares her story to raise awareness and support for others who have experienced similar tragedies.Contact InformationWidowed AF: @widowedafpodcastKatrina Smith: please contact the showWebsite: Widowed AF PodcastSupport OrganisationsCrime Survivors for Safety and Justice: Provides resources and advocacy for crime victims.(https://cssj.org/)Connect with Us: Follow us on Instagram @widowedAF Email: theshow at widowedAF.com Web: (https://www.widowedaf.com) Watch on (YouTube)
12/13/24 • 77:30
8B6C4vedzt7k9SjguWRKIn this special episode, Rosie Gill-Moss shares her reaction to the historic news that the UK Parliament has voted in favour of legalising assisted dying. Recorded just hours after hearing the announcement, Rosie reflects on the significance of this decision, drawing from personal stories shared on Widowed AF and the emotional conversations that shaped the podcast’s early episodes.As the host of Widowed AF, Rosie has spoken with over 100 individuals about some of the darkest times of their lives, often compounded by the suffering they have witnessed. She questions, “Why are we denied dignity and autonomy at the end of our lives, when we value them above almost all else?”While end-of-life care is often excellent, it does not alleviate all suffering. Rosie explores the deeply personal choice of assisted dying, the fear and dignity involved, and the relief this new law may provide to those facing terminal diagnoses. “None of us can predict how we might feel when facing a terminal diagnosis,” Rosie states. “I personally want this option to be available. I can’t say if I would use it, but I know I want the choice.”Tune in for a deeply personal and thought-provoking commentary on this historic moment of compassion, choice, and dignity.Key Topics:The emotional impact of the voteReflections on stories shared in Widowed AF episodes “Dignity” and “Thought-Provoking AF”Why dignity and autonomy matter at the end of lifeRelated Episodes:Episode 11: Dignity - Anonymous GuestEpisode 12: Thought-Provoking AFConnect with Us: Follow us on Instagram @widowedAF Email: theshow at widowedAF.com Web: (https://www.widowedaf.com) Watch on (YouTube)
11/29/24 • 08:00
Episode OverviewIn this episode of the "What About The Children" series, host Rosie Gill-Moss speaks with Stephanie Dixon, who shares her experience of losing her father to suicide at the age of 14. Stephanie discusses the complexities of her childhood, the impact of her father's death, and the importance of open conversations about mental health and grief.Key Discussion PointsChildhood Memories: Stephanie reflects on her early memories of her father and the signs of his struggles with mental health and addiction.The Day of Loss: She recounts the moment she learned of her father's death and the emotional aftermath.Support Systems: The conversation highlights the support she received from family and friends, as well as the lack of resources available at the time.Coping Mechanisms: Stephanie shares her journey through grief, including her experiences with therapy and the challenges of processing her emotions.Open Dialogue: The episode emphasises the need for open discussions about mental health and grief, particularly with children, to help them process their emotions.Related Episodes in the SeriesJess Yeldon: Discusses her experience of losing her father at a young age and the long-term effects of grief.Roisin Aldridge: Shares her perspective on losing a parent and the importance of support from peers and family.Ottis Middleton: Offers insights into how losing a parent at a young age has shaped his life and relationships.Stephanie's story serves as a reminder of the importance of addressing mental health and grief openly. By sharing her experiences, she hopes to encourage others to have conversations about loss and seek support when needed. Connect with Us: Follow us on Instagram @widowedAF Email: theshow at widowedAF.com Web: (https://www.widowedaf.com) Watch on (YouTube)
11/24/24 • 46:27
Episode OverviewIn this episode of the "What About The Children" series, host Rosie Gill-Moss speaks with Roisin Aldridge, who shares her experience of losing her father just two days before her 10th birthday. Roisin discusses the impact of her father's death on her life, her relationship with her family, and the importance of open conversations about grief.Key Discussion PointsChildhood Memories: Roisin reflects on her close relationship with her father and the normalcy of their life before his sudden death.The Day of Loss: She recounts the day her father died, including the confusion and emotions she felt when her mother delivered the news.Support Systems: The episode highlights the support Roisin received from her family, friends, and school, including counseling and peer support.Coping Mechanisms: Roisin shares how she and her family have created traditions to honour her father's memory, such as celebrating his favorite meals on anniversaries.Open Dialogue: The importance of discussing grief openly within families is emphasised, as Roisin talks about how her mother encouraged conversations about their loss.Related Episodes in the SeriesJess Yeldon: Discusses her experience of losing her father at a young age and the long-term effects of grief.Stephanie Dixon: Shares her story of losing her father to suicide and the impact it had on her childhood and family dynamics.Ottis Middleton: Offers insights into coping with the loss of a parent and the importance of support systems.Roisin's story serves as a reminder of the importance of open communication about grief and the need for support systems for children who experience loss. Her experiences highlight that while the pain of losing a parent is profound, it is possible to navigate life and find joy again.Connect with Us: Follow us on Instagram @widowedAF Email: theshow at widowedAF.com Web: (https://www.widowedaf.com) Watch on (YouTube)
11/24/24 • 46:23
Episode OverviewIn this episode of the "What About The Children" series, host Rosie Gill-Moss speaks with Jess Yeldon, who shares her experience of losing her father to cancer at the age of 11. Jess discusses the impact of her father's death on her life, her relationships, and the importance of open conversations about grief and mental health.Key Discussion PointsChildhood Memories: Jess reflects on her close relationship with her father and the memories of their time together before his illness.The Day of Loss: She recounts the day she learned of her father's death, including the confusion and emotions she experienced.Support Systems: The episode highlights the support Jess received from her family and friends, as well as the lack of resources available at the time.Coping Mechanisms: Jess shares how she navigated her grief, including her experiences with therapy and the challenges of processing her emotions.Open Dialogue: The importance of discussing mental health and grief openly with children is emphasised, as Jess talks about how her mother encouraged conversations about their loss.Related Episodes in the SeriesStephanie Dixon: Shares her story of losing her father to suicide and the impact it had on her childhood and family dynamics.Roisin Aldridge: Discusses her experience of losing her father just before her 10th birthday and the long-term effects of grief.Ottis Middleton: Offers insights into coping with the loss of a parent and the importance of support systems.Jess's story serves as a reminder of the importance of addressing mental health and grief openly. By sharing her experiences, she hopes to encourage others to have conversations about loss and seek support when needed.Connect with Us: Follow us on Instagram @widowedAF Email: theshow at widowedAF.com Web: (https://www.widowedaf.com) Watch on (YouTube)
11/24/24 • 36:59
Episode OverviewIn this episode of the "What About The Children" series, host Rosie Gill-Moss speaks with Otis Middleton, who shares his experience of losing his father to cancer at the age of seven. Otis discusses the impact of his father's death on his life, his feelings surrounding the loss, and the importance of open conversations about grief.Key Discussion PointsChildhood Memories: Otis reflects on his close relationship with his father and shares memories of visiting him in the hospital, highlighting the innocence of childhood during such a difficult time.The Day of Loss: He recounts being taken out of class to be informed of his father's death, describing his immediate emotional response and the confusion that followed.Support Systems: The episode discusses the support he received from teachers and friends at school, including how his classmates were informed and the kindness they showed him.Coping Mechanisms: Otis shares how he coped with his grief, including moments of hiding his emotions and the comfort he found in drawing and spending time with family.Open Dialogue: The importance of discussing feelings and memories of his father is emphasised, as Otis expresses that he is not afraid to talk about his dad and values the memories they share.Related Episodes in the SeriesJess Yeldon: Discusses her experience of losing her father at a young age and the long-term effects of grief.Stephanie Dixon: Shares her story of losing her father to suicide and the impact it had on her childhood and family dynamics.Roisin Aldridge: Talks about her experience of losing her father just before her 10th birthday and the importance of support from peers and family.Otis's story serves as a reminder of the importance of addressing mental health and grief openly. By sharing his experiences, he hopes to encourage others to have conversations about loss and seek support when needed.Connect with Us: Follow us on Instagram @widowedAF Email: theshow at widowedAF.com Web: (https://www.widowedaf.com) Watch on (YouTube)
11/24/24 • 19:36
Join Rosie as shares her experience of widowhood and its impact on children. In this series Rosie addresses the critical question: What about the children?This series features four guests who have lost a parent at a young age, each sharing their unique perspectives on coping with loss and the support systems that helped them.Featured Guests:S2 - EP20 - Jess Yeldon: Jess lost her father at age 11 and discusses the importance of communication about grief and how it shaped her life.S2 - EP18 - Stephanie Dixon: Stephanie shares her experience of losing her father to suicide at 14, highlighting the stigma surrounding mental health and the need for open conversations.S2 - EP19 - Roisin Aldridge: At 10, Roisin speaks of the day her father passed away and how her family has navigated their grief together.S2 - EP21 -Ottis Middleton: Also 14, Ottis reflects on losing his father to cancer and the ways he has learned to cope with the loss over the years.Key Themes:- The significance of discussing grief and loss with children.- Strategies for supporting children through their grief.- The long-term effects of losing a parent and how children can adapt and thrive.Join Rosie as she explores these important topics, offering insights and resources for parents and caregivers navigating the challenges of grief with their children. Connect with Us: Follow us on Instagram @widowedAF Email: theshow at widowedAF.com Web: (https://www.widowedaf.com) Watch on (YouTube)
11/24/24 • 03:30
In this episode of Widowed AF, Rosie Gill-Moss sits down with Kassandra McCleary, an American living in Paris who unexpectedly lost her husband to a lung cancer at just 37. Their love story began when Kassandra moved to France, where they built a life together, filled with travel, laughter, and a vibrant community of friends. But when her husband was diagnosed with terminal cancer, their world changed overnight, further complicated by the isolation of the pandemic.Kassandra opens up about the intense experience of caring for both a newborn and a terminally ill partner, navigating each day with a strength she never knew she had. From finding unexpected support in friends and neighbours to preserving her husband’s memory for their daughter, Kassandra’s story is one of resilience, love, and the quiet power of community. Rosie and Kassandra’s conversation brings to light not only the heartbreak but also the ways we find hope and connection during life’s most challenging times.If you’re navigating grief, supporting a loved one, or looking for stories of strength and survival, Kassandra’s journey will resonate with you. Her reflections on balancing motherhood, loss, and the importance of keeping memories alive for her daughter offer powerful insight and inspiration. Join us for this moving episode of Widowed AF, and don’t forget to subscribe for more conversations about love, loss, and life’s unexpected twists.Connect with Us: Follow us on Instagram @widowedAF Email: theshow at widowedAF.com Web: (https://www.widowedaf.com) Watch on (YouTube)
11/14/24 • 122:05
In this episode of Widowed-AF, host Rosie Gill-Moss is joined by Jonathan Gill-Moss to discuss various life updates and reflections.Rosie shares her experiences hosting a new podcast for Options Autism in a professional studio, highlighting her journey toward increased independence and confidence.They explore the complexities of managing their children’s disjointed half-term schedules, Rosie’s upcoming trip to Michigan, and the importance of taking time for personal care. The couple also talk openly about the challenges of their blended family, the necessity of honest communication, and the pressures and realities of maintaining a happy marriage. Additionally, John reflects on his struggles with grief and therapy after losing his previous spouse.The episode wraps up with updates on past podcast guests and Rosie’s response to a recent Panorama documentary critical of menopause treatments, advocating for the benefits of personalized care.Connect with Us: Follow us on Instagram @widowedAF Email: theshow at widowedAF.com Web: (https://www.widowedaf.com) Watch on (YouTube)
10/31/24 • 28:00
In this episode, Rosie sits down with Sari Overby, a mother from Maryland with a story that balances the joys and heartbreaks of life after a devastating diagnosis. Sari met her husband Ben as a teenager, and together they built a life full of love, laughter, and shared dreams. But when Ben was diagnosed with stage four lung cancer, they faced a new reality—one where time was limited but their commitment to each other and their family remained strong.Sari and Ben didn’t let the diagnosis define them. They bought a house, started a family through IVF, and found ways to continue living life on their own terms. Whether it was savoring simple pleasures like family movie nights or tackling tough moments together, they made the most of their time, all while managing the ups and downs of Ben’s illness.The episode is a reflection on the choices we make in the face of uncertainty. How do you keep living when you know what’s coming? Sari shares what it was like to balance hope and acceptance, especially as a mother of two young children. She talks about helping her daughter understand loss and how, even in Ben’s final days, there was space for connection and love.This conversation is about more than loss—it’s about the choices we make to keep living, loving, and finding moments of joy, even when things get hard. It’s an honest, relatable discussion on life’s most difficult moments and the strength it takes to navigate them.Tune in for a story about family, resilience, and finding meaning in the everyday, even when faced with loss.Connect with Us: Follow us on Instagram @widowedAF Email: theshow at widowedAF.com Web: (https://www.widowedaf.com) Watch on (YouTube)
10/7/24 • 83:28
In the latest episode of Widowed AF, join Rosie Gill-Moss as she sits down with Jackie Rees from Glasgow, who shares her unvarnished journey through grief, love, and enduring connections.Jackie recounts a story that begins with an unexpected heart condition that leads her into an emotional labyrinth. We follow her and her husband David, whose life was tragically cut short by a congenital heart defect. Jackie talks candidly about their 23 years together—highlighting their shared passion for rock music, their travels to New York, and the life they beautifully built without children by choice, but full of love nonetheless.Rosie and Jackie discuss intimate moments, including their chance meeting through a Kerang magazine message board and David's touching, albeit unconventional, marriage proposal. But the heart of the episode revolves around the series of medical challenges that David faced, which escalated rapidly, leaving Jackie grappling with their sudden and unpredictable nature.In navigating her life post-David, Jackie shares the small gestures of human kindness that supported her—care packages from friends, a close-knit support group, and the invaluable bond with David’s family. Through it all, Jackie paints a balanced picture of grief interwoven with moments of hope, friendship, and the conscious decision to keep living a full life.Listen to Jackie's moving yet triumphant story, reflecting on the realities of widowhood and the unexpected paths it forces one to tread. Her tale is one of resilience and courage, coupled with touching anecdotes that bring a smile amidst tears.Tune in to understand how she navigated the turbulent waters of loss and found new shores to anchor her life upon.Join us, subscribe, and be a part of the community that not only listens but also understands and supports.Connect with Us: Follow us on Instagram @widowedAF Email: theshow at widowedAF.com Web: (https://www.widowedaf.com) Watch on (YouTube)
9/23/24 • 72:33
Judy Condie’s life was shaped by her deep bond with her husband, Richard, a man she’d known almost her entire life. Their love story wasn’t a whirlwind romance but a slow burn, rooted in shared history and familiarity. They worked side by side, raised children together, and faced the ups and downs of life with a quiet resilience. Richard was her partner in every sense—through decades of shared experiences, he became her anchor. But life, as it often does, threw them an unexpected curveball.Richard’s diagnosis of colorectal cancer was the moment their world shifted. For eight years, they battled the disease together, a fight marked by Richard’s incredible determination and Judy’s unwavering support. Despite the grim prognosis, Richard transformed into a man of incredible strength—quitting drinking, becoming more active, and finding a new sense of purpose. His fight wasn’t just against cancer but also against the idea of letting it define his remaining days. He became more compassionate, more driven, and more determined to live fully, even as his time grew shorter.Judy watched this transformation with a mix of awe and heartbreak. Richard’s stoicism meant he kept much of his emotional journey to himself, but Judy understood him in a way that transcended words. They shared dark humour, and when the time came, Richard did open up—just briefly, in the final days—telling Judy all the things she had long known but had rarely heard from his lips. His final days were spent surrounded by love, in the comfort of a place they both cherished, with Judy by his side.When Richard passed, Judy faced the daunting reality of life without him. The house they had shared felt empty, the life they had built together seemed suddenly vast and hollow. But Judy knew she couldn’t let grief consume her. She needed a plan, a purpose. So she turned to something she had always loved—the open road, the promise of new horizons, and the solitude of nature.Judy’s journey took her across the world to Australia, where she spent five months travelling, often alone. It was in these moments of solitude, surrounded by the raw beauty of nature, that she began to truly grieve. The beaches, the wide-open skies, and the endless roads offered her a space to cry, to reflect, and to heal. This wasn’t just a trip; it was a pilgrimage, a journey inward as much as it was outward.Through her travels, Judy found herself again. The sadness didn’t disappear, but it became a part of her story, a story she learned to carry with grace and strength. She learned to cry when she needed to, to let the grief wash over her and then let it go. And in doing so, she began to find peace.Judy’s story is one of resilience, of the quiet courage it takes to keep living when everything you know has changed. It’s about finding new purpose in the aftermath of loss, about seeking out the light even when the darkness seems overwhelming. Through her journey, Judy shows us that while grief never truly leaves, it can lead us to unexpected places of beauty, growth, and ultimately, hope.Links From the show :Caught in a RIPtide. by Judie Connie - Available on AmazonThe Salt Path by Raynor Win - Available on AmazonListen to the full episode today.Connect with Us: Follow us on Instagram @widowedAF Email: theshow at widowedAF.com Web: (https://www.widowedaf.com) Watch on (YouTube)
9/9/24 • 73:33
In this episode of Widowed AF, Rosie and Jonathan Gill-Moss reflect on their recent experience hosting Woodstock, a festival that brought together a community. What began as a simple idea blossomed into a joyous day full of music, friendship, and celebration. Despite minor hiccups, such as missing stages and toilet issues, the event symbolised more than just fun—it was a testament to the healing power of connection.Rosie also opens up about personal challenges, from overcoming insecurities around sobriety to regaining her love for dancing, highlighting her journey of self-reclamation. Additionally, as they discuss their children’s back-to-school experiences, Rosie provides a heartfelt message of hope for parents navigating loss, showing that with love and support, even the toughest transitions can lead to growth and happiness.This episode is a celebration of how life continues to evolve after tragedy and the small victories that make the journey worthwhile.Connect with Us: Follow us on Instagram @widowedAF Email: theshow at widowedAF.com Web: (https://www.widowedaf.com) Watch on (YouTube)
9/7/24 • 18:22
Summary:Welcome to another episode of Widowed AF. In this episode, host Rosie Gill-Moss has a detailed conversation with Geraint Williams, who shares his experience of being widowed and raising two young boys. Geraint discusses his late wife Rosie’s ten-year journey with cancer, the impact on their family, and the adjustments he has made since her passing. The discussion covers their early life together, Rosie's initial cancer diagnosis, treatment, and remission, the decision to have a second child through IVF, her terminal diagnosis, and end-of-life planning. Geraint provides practical insights into managing life with young children during a spouse's illness and navigating the complexities of grief and single parenthood after her death.Geraint begins by recounting how he met Rosie in 1997 and their life together up to the birth of their first child, Walt, in 2010. In 2012, Rosie was diagnosed with breast cancer, which led to a year of treatment. After a period of remission, they decided to have a second child through IVF, resulting in the birth of their son Rex in 2016. However, in 2017, Rosie experienced a localised recurrence of cancer.In 2021, Rosie received a terminal diagnosis, with cancer spreading to multiple parts of her body. Geraint explains how they managed this difficult period, including their decision to delay informing their children to preserve their innocence. He details Rosie's end-of-life period, her efforts to plan her own funeral, and the challenges of being a single parent after her death.Geraint also shares his journey through grief, the importance of counselling, and the specific challenges men face in expressing vulnerability and seeking support. This episode aims to provide insights into the practical and emotional aspects of coping with loss and the importance of open communication.Guest Bio:Geraint Williams: Geraint Williams is a widowed father of two boys. His wife, Rosie, battled cancer for ten years before passing away in 2022. Geraint shares his journey of caring for Rosie, raising their children, and navigating life after her death.Trigger Warnings:Discussions of terminal illness and cancerConversations about grief and lossMention of end-of-life planningRelated Links:https://www.ted.com/talks/brene_brown_listening_to_shame?nolanguage=en Royal Marsden HospitalDisclosures and Disclaimers: The content of this podcast is for informational purposes only and does not constitute medical or psychological advice. Listeners are encouraged to seek professional help for their own unique situations. The views expressed by the guest are their own and do not necessarily reflect those of the podcast or its producers.Connect with Us: Follow us on Instagram @widowedAF Email: theshow at widowedAF.com Web: (https://www.widowedaf.com) Watch on (YouTube)
7/26/24 • 90:43
In this episode of Widowed AF, host Rosie Gill-Moss catches up with listeners She shares updates from her busy life, discussing kids finishing school, primary school proms, and the usual juggling act of parenthood.Rosie talks about her recent chat with Dan Clark from MindJam. If your kids spend a lot of time gaming, Dan's insights on the benefits of gaming for neurodivergent and bereaved children are worth hearing. It helped put some concerns about screen time into perspective.Rosie also updates listeners on the upcoming Widstock event. Expect a cocktail bar, posh coffee van, inflatables, and a glitter wall. Rosie will be performing on stage, so grab your tickets for a fun day out.She also shares an update about a former guest, Sarah. After sharing her story about losing her husband to a drug overdose, Sarah reconnected with an estranged family member who heard her episode. This highlights the impact of sharing personal stories on the podcast.Rosie introduces her new podcast, Rosie FM. This new venture allows her to dig deeper into various topics, with interesting guests like Dr. Louise Newson, a specialist in menopause. Check it out and leave a review if you enjoy it.If you have any questions or topics you'd like her to cover, please get in touch. Keep on keeping on out there.Connect with Us: Follow us on Instagram @widowedAF Email: theshow at widowedAF.com Web: (https://www.widowedaf.com) Watch on (YouTube)
7/17/24 • 14:12
In this episode of Widowed AF, host Rosie Gill-Moss welcomes Audry Lynn Henniger, who shares her story from Texas. Audry discusses the events surrounding the disappearance and death of her husband, Bill, during a whitewater kayaking trip, highlighting the similarities between her experience and Rosie’s.The episode begins with Audry describing her life with Bill, an adventurous and lively man who loved extreme sports. Audry details the day Bill went missing, emphasizing the fear and uncertainty during the 30 days before his body was found. Rosie and Audry discuss the challenges of dealing with their husbands' risky hobbies and the impact of these activities on their lives.Audry shares how she and Bill met in their twenties and their plans for an early retirement filled with outdoor activities and rescuing dogs. She reflects on the aftermath of Bill’s disappearance, touching on the practical issues such as managing finances and the emotional toll of grief.The conversation moves to the support systems that helped Audry, including therapy and the role of friends and family. Audry explains how she navigated the legal and financial aspects of widowhood and the importance of seeking professional help to understand her grief.Audry also discusses her involvement in volunteer work as a way to honor Bill’s memory, including fundraising for local search and rescue operations and volunteering with Camp Erin, a camp for grieving children. She mentions her current relationship and how it differs from her life with Bill, highlighting the importance of finding new happiness while respecting the past.This episode provides insights into the practical and emotional challenges faced by widows and the various ways to cope with loss and rebuild life.Key Topics:Introduction of Audry Lynn Henniger and her storyThe kayaking accident and the 30-day search for BillLife with Bill: Adventures and future plansPractical and emotional challenges of widowhoodThe role of therapy and support systems in healingHonouring Bill's memory through volunteer workFinding new happiness after lossResources Mentioned:Camp Erin: A camp for grieving children. (https://elunanetwork.org/camps-programs/camp-erin)Connect with Us: Follow us on Instagram @widowedAF Email: theshow at widowedAF.com Web: (https://www.widowedaf.com) Watch on (YouTube)
7/1/24 • 81:19
In this episode of Widowed AF, Rosie takes a moment to check in and share some thoughts. Rosie discusses the recent passing of Michael Mosley and reflects on how such losses resonate deeply. With the summer holidays approaching, she talks about the challenges of keeping kids entertained, especially with a wide range of ages.Rosie also gives an update on the Widstock event, encouraging listeners to get their tickets soon. She recounts her solo trip to Amsterdam, highlighting the unexpected experiences and personal insights she gained from the journey.Join Rosie as she navigates these topics and invites you to reflect on your own ways of handling daily challenges and grief. How do you balance everyday life while managing loss? Listen to the full episode to find out more.Connect with Us: Follow us on Instagram @widowedAF Email: theshow at widowedAF.com Web: (https://www.widowedaf.com) Watch on (YouTube)
6/28/24 • 14:01
In this episode of Widowed AF, Rosie Gill-Moss speaks with Ksenija Krstic about her journey through grief after losing her husband, André, in a paragliding accident. Ksenija opens up about the shock of sudden loss, the struggle to find solace, and the importance of support from friends and community.The conversation digs into the complexities of grieving unexpected death and the secondary losses that accompany it.Connect with Us: Follow us on Instagram @widowedAF Email: theshow at widowedAF.com Web: (https://www.widowedaf.com) Watch on (YouTube)
6/17/24 • 88:01
In today's episode of Widowed AF, Rosie welcomes Rebecca Vogel-Pitts from Colorado. Rebecca is not only a widow but also a member of the former Hot Young Widows Club, a group that provided vital support to Rosie during her grieving process.Rebecca shares the heartbreaking story of her husband Kevin's death in a skiing accident in 2016. Kevin, died during a family skiing trip to Breckenridge. Rebecca candidly recounts the traumatic experience of learning about his death over the phone, the confusion and frustration surrounding the incident, and the subsequent emotional turmoil.Despite the tragedy, Rebecca reflects on the resilience of her family, particularly her children, who have navigated their grief in their unique ways. She also discusses the unexpected connections and support systems that emerged, including her eventual relationship with her partner, Scott, who she met through a serendipitous connection to her late husband's former colleagues.Rebecca's story is a powerful testament to the complexities of grief, the importance of support networks, and the possibility of finding love and joy after profound loss. Her journey from devastation to finding a new sense of normalcy offers hope and solace to listeners, especially those in the early stages of widowhood.This episode is a reminder that even in the darkest times, there can be moments of connection, growth, and new beginnings.Tune in to hear Rebecca's account of her journey and the wisdom she's gained along the way.Connect with Us: Follow us on Instagram @widowedAF Email: theshow at widowedAF.com Web: (https://www.widowedaf.com) Watch on (YouTube)
5/20/24 • 99:43
In this episode of Widowed AF, host Rosie Gill-Moss speaks to Jess Walton, a young widow from Swanley, North Kent.Jess shares the story of her late husband, Matthew, who was diagnosed with breast cancer at the age of 28. Despite initial dismissals by doctors, further tests confirmed the rare and aggressive cancer.Jess walks us through their journey, detailing the challenges of chemotherapy, a mastectomy, and radiotherapy, and how they managed these treatments while maintaining their daily lives.She shares their decision to marry in October 2018 and their honeymoon in Canada, as they tried to reclaim a sense of normalcy.The conversation shifts to the impact of the COVID-19 pandemic on their lives, highlighting how the lockdown complicated Matthew's health care and the eventual return and spread of his cancer. Jess provides practical insights into managing serious illness and young widowhood during such unprecedented times.Jess is now preparing her own significant challenge: a five-day trek in the Brecon Beacons for the charity CoppaFeel!, aimed at raising awareness about male breast cancer. This trek is not only a tribute to Matthew but also a testament to Jess's strength and determination to honour his memory.For those interested in supporting Jess and she has setup a fundraising page herehttps://www.justgiving.com/page/jess-waltonTune in now to Widowed AF to hear Jess Walton's story.Trigger Warnings: 1. Cancer Diagnosis and Treatment.2. Death and Bereavement.3. COVID-19 Pandemic.4. Grief and Loss.5. Secondary Loss.#WidowedAF #TrueStories #CancerJourney #YoungWidowhoodConnect with Us: Follow us on Instagram @widowedAF Email: theshow at widowedAF.com Web: (https://www.widowedaf.com) Watch on (YouTube)
5/20/24 • 52:27
In this new episode of Widowed AF, host Rosie Gill-Moss welcomes Kirsty Cluff, who joins her for a chat from Scotland.Kirsty shares her emotional journey, detailing her life with her late husband Pete, a dedicated soldier who unexpectedly passed away from an undiagnosed heart condition just weeks shy of his 22nd year in service.The episode delves into the complexities of military life, the challenges of sudden widowhood, and the grief process.Kirsty discusses the enormous impact of her husband's death on her family's future and the struggles of raising their two young daughters in the aftermath.Key topics: Military family, sudden death , bereaved children, finding love again.Connect with Us: Follow us on Instagram @widowedAF Email: theshow at widowedAF.com Web: (https://www.widowedaf.com) Watch on (YouTube)
5/7/24 • 93:41
Join us for the first episode of Season 2 of Widowed AF, where your host Rosie Gill-Moss, alongside co-host Jonathan Gill-Moss, return for more stories from the coal face of widowhood . This episode reintroduces the ethos of the podcast and shares a recap for new listeners. You can expect to hear frank conversations that provide insight and understanding of grief, the process of healing, and the challenges of finding yourself again after the loss of your person. Tune in to hear stories that resonate with anyone who has experienced loss or wants to better support others through such times. Whether you're new to the community or have been with us since the beginning, Widowed AF is here to offer a a friendly (and dark humoured ) place for sharing, healing, and understanding.Connect with Us: Follow us on Instagram @widowedAF Email: theshow at widowedAF.com Web: (https://www.widowedaf.com) Watch on (YouTube)
4/19/24 • 31:14
In this episode of Widowed AF, host Rosie Gill-Moss is joined by Stacey Heale, author of Now is Not the Time for Flowers, and widowed mum of two.Stacey shares the horror of losing her husband Greg to Bowel Cancer at a young age, navigating grief while raising their two young daughters.Rosie and Stacey hit it off immediately bonding over their shared experiences as grieving mothers, the loneliness and isolation they experienced and the loss of their identity in widowhood.The pair discuss the transformative power of love and acceptance, while acknowledging the ever-present anxiety and brokenness that remains.With humour, vulnerability and wisdom, Rosie and Stacey normalise the messy reality of grief. They remind listeners that happiness and sorrow can coexist, and it's possible to rebuild a life of purpose after death.Connect with Us: Follow us on Instagram @widowedAF Email: theshow at widowedAF.com Web: (https://www.widowedaf.com) Watch on (YouTube)
4/19/24 • 96:47
⭐️ Episode 100!!!! ⭐️A little over one year ago we began to broadcast stories from our hidden world. Stories that broke the mould, changed the narrative around widowhood and gave a voice to those who felt silenced by their grief.This landmark episode ends Season 1, and we are so grateful to everyone who has listened to and supported the show, and the legacy that’s been created for those we have lost. There is power in these shared conversations and Season 2 is preparing to launch. As long as you keep listening we will keep talking!Alongside me (Rosie) and Jon (the alive husband) you will hear from some previous guests, and former co-host Lulu joins us for a catch up on what life looks like for her now.To date we have spoken to over 50 guests, they have courageously shared their pain, and their secrets, demonstrating an incredible determination to survive the worst days of their lives. This episode is for them, I remain humbled by their bravery.Thank you for listening, and for being part of this incredible adventure.(Widstock tickets and merch are now available at www.widowedaf.com)Connect with Us: Follow us on Instagram @widowedAF Email: theshow at widowedAF.com Web: (https://www.widowedaf.com) Watch on (YouTube)
3/28/24 • 80:01
