Feelin Weird

Dayle Hendrix returns (episode 120) to talk about death & destroyers, creative endings & new beginnings, surviving capitalism, and the pre/post-apocalypse need for REAL community. We also discuss: Re-learning how to play and celebrate and have fun; Honouring and embracing destroyer/death energy; Running towards your demons; The SHADOW self; The fear of what’s inside; Being an artist AND trying to survive capitalism; Foraging for food; Elders & the internet age; Death & killing as apart of the life process; Avoiding death & discomfort; Welcoming all the parts; Trying to be “good” as a way of avoiding truth & authenticity; Community & belonging; Capitalist transactional relationships; Having basic needs covered in order to thrive; Capitalism does not support community; Relationship is healing; Being a part of community with challenging members—diversity rather than a homogenous blob; Learning how to be in real relationship with people; Holding two seemingly opposing truths at once; We are tender, beautiful & challenging creatures who NEED each other; Growth vs shut-down/fear; The spark of life is still there underneath all the hurt, it doesn’t die; and more! SEND A

Send a LESS THAN 3 minute audio file before DEC 15, 2022 to producerkye@gmail.com to be a part of the "GOODBYE FEELIN WEIRD listener audio collage".  You are welcome to be anonymous if you choose. It's time for me to move on.  Thank you to all of those who have supported me and my art. Recorded Oct 20, 2022. SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinweird.com Contact: feelinweird@gmail.com Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :) *Please consider contributing $5-50/month to support the show (and receive ~100 bonus episodes)

Hillary L. McBride PhD returns (ep 105) to talk owning the tenderness, pain, & wisdom inside; coming back to the self; becoming a parent; grief & joy; and The Wisdom of Your Body.  This is a BEAUTIFUL conversation! We also talk: making space for the parts which are still in healing process; non-hierarchical community; parenting as a return to self; humanizing podcast interactions; being small AND taking up space; growing & healing; taking your own medicine; learning how to return home; what IS the self?; letting go of colonial, patriarchal hierarchies; and MORE. Hillary's website & book "The Wisdom of Your Body" Recorded April 26, 2022 (intro/outro Oct 21, 2022). SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinweird.com Contact: feelinweird@gmail.com Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :) *Please consider contributing $5-50/month to support the show (and receive ~100 bonus episodes)

Shayne D. returns (ep 60, 72, 73 & 107) to talk about living on his own for the first time in his life, why people do "crazy" things; & how he's finding peace on the inside & outside. we also talk: accountability (do what you say you'll do); owning the pain we carry; generating compassion (for self & others); being highly sensitive; the humyn potential to be a saint & a demon; being Institutionalized; Borderline Personality Disorder; his father's BPD & his death; the energy of group rage; living gentle, quiet lives; the power of music & art; spirituality & religion; & more. Recorded Aug 8, 2022 (intro/outro Sept 30, 2022). SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinweird.com Contact: feelinweird@gmail.com Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :) *Please consider contributing $5-50/month to support the show (and receive ~100 bonus episodes)

Sone talks growth VS. fixed mindsets; hope & hopelessness;  karma; practicing LOVE & compassion; learning disabilities; & healing relationships. we also talk: being with ALL of the humyn experiences (grief & joy); energy purging; fearful-avoidant attachment styles; sitting with the hurt & not passing it on to others; skepticism & the intersection of parts; fear of failure; shame; colonial mindset; the forget/remember & freeze/thaw cycles; wanting to leave my body; love & gratitude for life; non-monogamy; secrets, white-lies & dishonesty; and a GOOSE update. Recorded May 23, 2022 (intro/outro August 25, 2022). SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinweird.com Contact: feelinweird@gmail.com Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :) *Please consider contributing $5-50/month to support the show (and receive ~100 bonus episodes)

Maja talks Vaginismus; mind-body connection; finding a safe therapist; trauma therapy; healing through relationship; & PTSD. CW: brief mention of sexual violence & self-harm. We also discuss: shaking, screaming, jumping up and down to release energy; behavioural therapy (CBT) as short term care; learning to hate & disconnect from the body at a young age; disconnection from body as cultural norm; the power of connection; "the problem is physical and the solution is physical"; & more! “When you have a relationship with your body, you don’t want to hurt it” Recorded April 4, 2022 (in/outro July 28, 2022). SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinweird.com Contact: feelinweird@gmail.com Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :) *Please consider contributing $5-50/month to support the show (and receive ~100 bonus episodes)

Karrigan shares her story with autism, sensory issues, letting go of shame, SPECIAL INTERESTS (Lady Gaga & Jurassic Park), chronic pain, Endometriosis & Adenomyosis, shitty doctors, AND getting a hysterectomy in her 20s. We also talk: ADHD; not being taken seriously by doctors; masking chronic pain; self-hatred AND no longer hating the self; being bullied for her special interests; learning to mask at a young age; finding people to unmask with; NEEDING support; the ability to read people's repressed inner worlds; patriarchy; the shame of "laziness; the importance and privilege of having a quiet & consistent home; being raised by a single mother; Gastrointestinal issues; people's discomfort with your pain; and MORE. “I planned my entire day around being in pain…and not everybody likes to hear that” Recorded November 16, 2021 (intro/outro: July 24, 2022). SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinweird.com Contact: feelinweird@gmail.com Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :) *Please consider contributing $5-50/month to support the show (and receive ~100 bonus episodes)

In which I sit beside the river and share ideas about decolonizing the inner landscape, slowing down & shifting the Emotional Climate-Change (within every humyn on this planet). Also discussed: Grieving and celebrating as part of honouring life; Carrying grief from ancestors; Sensitivity as a gift to humyns; Colonial mindset ("it only has value if I decide it has value") vs Community mindset ("everything has intrinsic value whether or not I understand it"); "I don’t own my emotions"; Climate change as humyns forgetting how to belong; PEACE as a fluctuating state (like the seasons and emotions); Welcoming my anxious parts; Being a part of the earth system and the internal system; Being PART of community; Meditation & rest; “I’m too busy to rest and slow down”; The dominator/colonial mindset (the anthropocentric mindset); Remembering how to belong (to self and community); Remembering how to be apart of the non-humyn community; Decolonization (starts within—how I treat my self, my body, my emotions); Inner peace is outer peace; Realigning the inner parts; Where I’m at is exactly where I’m at (honouring that); Welcoming in all of my parts and emotions; Being a part of a humyn system that is beyond us (which is actively destroying & harming the planet and ourselves); The first step is saying “whoa, I’m stuck” and honouring that and BEing there; AND MORE. Recorded April 16, 2022. This is a PATREON Bonus Episode!  Go to www.patreon.com/feelinweird to listen to every bonus episode. SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinweird.com Email: feelinweird@gmail.com Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :) *Please consider contributing $5-50/month to support the show (and receive ~100 bonus episodes)

Kitty Sipple talks collective grief; multiplicity; the psychiatric industrial complex; synchronicities, magic & tarot; living in extreme states; & being Mad, Multiple and Autistic. Kitty is Mad & multiple. they are a constellation of neuroqueer/Autistic polymath polymorphic storytellers. kitty exists in this timeline as a white, disabled, trans/non-binary femme creature. We also talk: the collective self (many people within one person); Dissociative Identity Disorder; existing in different timelines; connecting through grief; grief & joy; grieving as CELEBRATING life; compassion, grace & forgiveness of self (and others); unlearning capitalism; the magic of "I'm not ALONE!"; the fool & the magician (tarot cards); making amends; disconnecting and reconnecting to community; banishing the self; witnessing animals grieve; non-hierarchical power; AUTHENTIC connection as a BALM for loneliness; trauma fundamentalism; and MORE. Kitty's website & IG @fungifemme Recorded Feb 7 (Intro: May 5&6), 2022. SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinweird.com Contact: feelinweird@gmail.com Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :) *Please consider contributing $5-50/month to support the show (and receive ~100 bonus episodes)

Dr. Robyn talks developing relationships with our bodies; sitting and BREATHING (coregulation) in nature; rejecting & reclaiming spirituality; autism (sensory overwhelm); & MORE. Dr. Robyn Henderson-Espinoza (TransQueer Latinx Activist Scholar & Politicized Theologian) joins me for a heart-felt conversation about co-creating & rebuilding heart-centered communities and connections (with ourselves, our bodies and our communities)! We also talk: relationships as HEALING; proliferating love; a love-hate relationship with humanity; eating food together as powerful connection; the transactional nature of capitalism; needing better models to pattern ourselves after; fragmenting of self; spirituality as CONNECTION; reconnecting to our inner truth; having ideas, not answers; sitting in nature and remembering how to BE (SLOW down); defining 'god'; atheism & agnosticism; pantheism (god in everything); forest bathing & earthing; the slow road back to self; composting social media; the challenge of being around people; the paradox of being meaningfully very small and very big; and MORE! AND Non Wels joins to talk about reconnecting with our inner-child.  Pre-order his Dear Childhood Me journal. Connect with Dr. Robyn. Recorded March 14, 22 (Intro: April 4&5) 2022. SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinweird.com Contact: feelinweird@gmail.com Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :) *Please consider contributing $5-50/month to support the show (and receive ~100 bonus episodes)

The second episode of THE WEIRDO CALL-IN SHOW features inter-dimensional listener phone calls, listener-submitted songs AND guests like Producer Kye, Colin Show, Dagenson, Sarah Sarenson, Legal-Advisor Timmy, and FUTURE ME!  This one's weird, silly, and heart-centred! Topics include: decolonization; inner peace=outer peace; finding REAL support; belonging & connection; compassion; crying; shape-shifting tricksters; sadness RIGHT underneath anger; the paradoxical nature of reality; and MUCH more. Featuring songs from Gary Candlewaxface, Frank Bottoms, and Billy Goblinhat! Recorded March 9-16, 2022. SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinweird.com Contact: feelinweird@gmail.com Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :) *Please consider contributing $5-50/month to support the show (and receive ~100 bonus episodes)

Natalia and I navigate shut down; taking in love; fear of people, spirits, & losing control; magic, mystery & awe; challenging trips; reclaiming spirituality; & "what is my place in this world??" Natalia joins me for what MIGHT be the most interesting & challenging podcast recording I've ever made! We discuss: psychedelics as agents of change, healing + harm; reclaiming spirituality & magic; challenging trips; fear of love, people, ghosts, demons, spirits, bears, cougars, sleeping alone, losing control; spirituality (and shame); the mystery, magic and AWE of life; the harm of capitalism; "what is my place in society?"; the importance of ART, relationships, and beauty; BELONGING; nurturing silliness, play & creativity; and MUCH more. Recorded July 13, 2021 (intro: Feb 24, 2022). SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinweird.com Contact: feelinweird@gmail.com Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :) *Please consider contributing $5-50/month to support the show (and receive ~100 bonus episodes)

Do you need and/or want someone to listen to and hold space for you as you grieve/feel and reconnect with your body and emotions?  Are you tired of seeing therapists who don't ACTUALLY listen or support you?  Do you like hearing my voice and want to be heard by me?  Do you want to remember how to feel, how to REALLY exist in your body?  Do you need to grieve generations of pain and sorrow?  I can be that person for you (if it feels right).   I have been sitting with people one-on-one in a relational-healing context for the last 4 months and I want to open myself up to sitting with new people. I'm not a therapist/counsellor but I do have a gift for holding space and going deep with people.  I will not psychoanalyze you, I will not try to fix you; I will support you as best as I can, in a way that actually FEELS supportive to YOU. Sliding Scale + Pay What You Can rates; no one will be turned away who is too poor. Send me an email if you're curious: feelinweird@gmail.com

Dayle Hendrix's entire life changed when, at age 16, she received a terminal diagnosis (Fabry Disease).  She thought she'd be dead at 30, but she's surpassed that age and now she's making sense of her diagnosis and what LIFE and DEATH mean to her.  This is one of my fav episodes! We also discuss: Being raised as a conservative Christian; Witchcraft; The loneliness & challenge of processing a terminal diagnosis; Martyrdom; Denial of death; Death rituals; Wanting to leave a legacy & be remembered; The fear of heaven and hell; Deathphobia; RUNNING AWAY FROM DEMONS; What happens after I die?; the Christian savior complex (Good intentions which harm others); Missions trips (colonialism); The challenge of looking into the mirror; Fear of death (and anxiety); Needing intimacy; Laughter as a defense mechanism; Everyone has a terminal diagnosis, they just haven’t received it from an authority figure; Ignoring death and grief = not fully living; Partying as a response to a conservative, Christian upbringing; Gentle, slow healing; Surfing the waves of life; Exercising when I feel scared (releasing the physical energy); Integrating emotional changes; Avoidance-of-death as a cultural trait; Grieving as a way of celebrating and honouring death/loss; Seeing many different perspectives; Honouring the weirdos (wackadoodles); and MUCH more. Dayle's IG @the___simple___life & Youtube! Recorded Dec 20, 2021 (Intro: Jan 18 & 19 2022). SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinweird.com Contact: feelinweird@gmail.com Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :) *Please consider contributing $5-50/month to support the show (and receive ~100 bonus episodes)

Dresden von Saturnalia was raised by an emotionally inept military father & an absent mother (who died when Dresden was 18).  Dresden, until recently, struggled VERY hard with stability, friendships, safety, and emotions.  He's found deep healing in his journey and has joined me to share his story. We also discuss: Complex Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder (CPTSD) & Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD); the ripple effects of healing; rapid cycling of moods & shifting; processing, venting and validating anger; having FIERY emotions/passion; AFAB & identifying androgyne; collectively processing grief within community; the grief of surviving; decolonization; no longer identifying with a diagnosis; having basic safety-needs met; compassion for self & challenging people; becoming a tattoo artist; check-ins & consent; gratitude and survivor's guilt for healing; and so much more. Dresden's IG: @saturnalis.artes Recorded July 27 (intro/outro Dec 30), 2021. SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinweird.com Email: feelinweird@gmail.com Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :) *Please consider contributing $5-50/month to support the show (and receive ~100 bonus episodes)

CONTENT ADVISORY: death, suicide, violence, self harm. John Penman returns (episode 76) to talk about his recent relapse into self harm (and how he's learned to treat himself with compassion), processing death, BPD, consent and psychedelics. we also discuss: self-punishment; forgiving self; being a part of a death-centric cycle; watching the self GROW; the WAVES of life; moving through GUILT & shame; accidentally killing animals + the GRIEF; monogamy & partnership & love; clear communication; neurodiversity; and MUCH more. Follow John on IG @jnpnmn Recorded May 23 & Dec1, 2021. SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinweird.com Email: feelinweird@gmail.com Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :) *Please consider contributing $5-50/month to support the show (and receive ~100 bonus episodes)

Amber Nicole (episode 71) reached out to me at a time when I was at my absolute lowest (~5 years ago).  She sat with me as I tried to untangle years of confusion, trauma, and deep, deep shame.  This is a conversation many years later where we discuss what those initial meetings were like and where we're both at now. We also discuss: feeling compassion for past selves; psychedelics; the grief walk; healing the inner child; learning to take love in; needing physical nurturing; relational healing; addiction; total despair; carrying trauma in the body; resentment; allowing emotion to ROLL through; running from love; being my authentic self; makin amends; therapy as an antiquated model of support; emotionphobia; believing painful stories about self; living on a challenging planet; and MUCH more. SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinweird.com Email: feelinweird@gmail.com Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :) *Please consider contributing $5-50/month to support the show (and receive ~100 bonus episodes)

My guest and I are autistic.  We talk about being HIGHLY sensitive, masking, autistic burnout, neurodivergent shame, and getting a diagnosis. We also discuss: the shortcomings of the western medical system; turning off ALL emotions as a response to having big feelings; special interests; the gap between logic and heart; queer and spiritual; O.C.D., G.A.D., & major depression; BPD and not identifying with past diagnoses; understanding and respecting your own needs and boundaries; fear of taking up too much space; clear, direct communication; PLUS, Gaby, Dagenson and I chat about feeling scared and believing in our selves AND I rant about the humyn species and how confusing they/we are! Recorded June 15 & Oct 17/18, 2021. SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinweird.com Email: feelinweird@gmail.com Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :) *Please consider contributing $5-50/month to support the show (and receive ~100 bonus episodes)

Non Wels (You, Me, Empathy; Feely Human) and I navigate BIG feelings, jealousy, psilocybin journeys, DIY healing and art, limiting beliefs, self-harm and the belief that "I deserve to be in pain." We also discuss: perfectionism; BPD; the power of podcasts; shutting down in order to survive in our families growing up; reconnecting with our younger parts; being and Eyore; EMDR; mind-stories; unlearning; fear of joy; identifying emotions in the body; small talk; and SO much more. Learn more about Non. Recorded Sept 9, 2020 & Oct 8, 2021. SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinweird.com Email: feelinweird@gmail.com Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :) *Please consider contributing $5-50/month to support the show (and receive ~100 bonus episodes)

Do you need and/or want someone to listen to and hold space for you as you grieve/feel and reconnect with your body and emotions?  Are you tired of seeing therapists who don't ACTUALLY listen or support you?  Do you want to remember how to feel, how to REALLY exist in your body?  Do you need to grieve generations of pain and sorrow?  I can be that person for you (if it feels right).   I'm opening myself up to seeing people one-on-one in a relational-healing context.  I'm not a therapist/counsellor but I do have a gift for holding space and going deep with people.  I will not give advice, I will not try to fix you; I will support you as best as I can, in a way that actually FEELS supportive to YOU. Sliding scale rates; no one will be turned away who is too poor. Send me an email if you're curious: feelinweird@gmail.com

At age 18, Greg Washington had the chance to enter the NFL draft and instead chose to serve his country (USA) and go to war.  A few years of combat later, his two best-friends were killed and he was forced home by the military, he found himself drinking daily just to cope with his PTSD and TBI.  He almost killed himself but he had a guardian angel who intervened.  Since then, he's found healing and meaning. We also talk about: complicated grief; the cumulative effects of racism and slavery; loneliness and isolation; wanting to FEEL again; PRESSURE; opening up in a culture that teaches a man to shut down; connected healing; intergenerational trauma; taking care of family; and SO much more. SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinweird.com Email: feelinweird@gmail.com Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :) *Please consider contributing $5-50/month to support the show (and receive ~100 bonus episodes)

An anonymous guest was cyberbullied and gaslit by students in his college for an entire year, he shares how this DEEPLY impacted his sense of safety and self! We also discuss: fear of eye contact; understanding trauma response (fight/flight/freeze); the impact of trauma; "I am a failure"; self sabotage; psychosis or gaslighting???; fear of "going crazy"; PTSD; sitting with emotions; coming out after being bullied; intrusive thoughts; and SO much more! Recorded Dec 15, 2020 & Aug 6, 2021. SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinweird.com Email: feelinweird@gmail.com Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :) *Please consider contributing $5-50/month to support the show (and receive ~100 bonus episodes)

James W. Jesso (Adventures Through The Mind) and I discuss the potential of psychedelics for DEEP-healing, the POWER of understanding emotions. and the MAGIC of words. We also discuss: transforming a "BAD TRIP" into a life-changing experience, experiencing "I AM HOME in my body", AFTER the wave of terror, "WHAT IS mental health?", harm reduction, "these are NOT party drugs", context of use, feeling triggered, understanding emotions, being shown DEEP traumas, entheogens & plant medicines, PLUS, I have a CONVERSATION with THE UNIVERSE! James' website: https://www.jameswjesso.com/ Recorded June 8 & July 16, 2021. SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinweird.com Email: feelinweird@gmail.com Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :) *Please consider contributing $5-50/month to support the show (and receive ~100 bonus episodes)

Conflict is inevitable. My partner, Tuna, joins me to destigmatize conflict within relationships (especially for people with deep attachment wounds and traumas)--to normalize "sometimes it feels really hard to be in relationship (and this is how we find meaning within that)." We also discuss: FEAR of CLOSENESS, intimacy & love; crying together (healing); being HIGHLY sensitive; developing code words and unique language; learning to sit with my feelings before responding or reacting; non-violent communication; creating a world within a relationship; emotional CO-regulation; NEEDING other people; plant medicines; FULLY resolving conflict; taking my armour off, dismantling my walls; repressing needs/feelings; fear of conflict; CREATIVITY & Co-creating; and SO much more! Recorded July 4 & 6 2021. SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinweird.com Email: feelinweird@gmail.com Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :) *Please consider contributing $5-50/month to support the show (and receive ~100 bonus episodes)

Alex Benbow Carter (artist, musician) and I talk ALL things ANXIETY, depression and CREATIVITY. We also discuss:panic attacks during class presentations;SMALL talk;opening up to strangers;INSOMNIA;challenging relationships with our dads;HOW TO be an adult?;grieving death in family;health-anxiety ("I HAVE CANCER!!!" (except I don't));parent's divorce;finding moments of PEACE;CBT, meditation, being present;trying to avoid conflict;needing to slow my thoughts down;ART and PAIN;General Anxiety Disorder;and SO much more! Alex's IG: @alexbc_art Recorded Sept 25, 2020; June 28&29 2021. SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinweird.com Email: feelinweird@gmail.com Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :) *Please consider contributing $5-50/month to support the show (and receive ~100 bonus episodes)

Christina Jumper (Pickles and Vodka podcast) and I question REALITY, spirituality/Christianity, Brene Brown & celebrity WHILE also wondering "is riding a motorcycle meditation for people who need danger to feel safe??" CW: BRIEF mention of suicide. We also discuss: IS THIS A SIMULATION?; TAKING UP sssspppaaaaaccceeee; meditation or "I HATE SITTING STILL!"; RIDING motorcycles and loving it; bulimia; cannabis & psychedelics; learning to DANCE again!; reconnecting to the heart; the damage done by capitalism & religion; being KIND to the self; CYNICISM!; intellectualization as a defense; "celebrities are lost"; self-censorship; reparenting the inner child; believing there is something EVIL inside me; embracing PLAY; taking life less & more seriously; UNLOCKING the door to the meat prison & transforming it into a MEAT palace; and SO much more! Christina's IG: @picklesandvodkapodcast SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinweird.com Email: feelinweird@gmail.com Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :) *Please consider contributing $5-50/month to support the show (and receive ~100 bonus episodes)

Ruth/Haha and I explore a challenging conversation which results in me feeling triggered (listen as we gently resolve it, through non-violent communication, and come back into a really beautiful connection)! We also discuss: playfulness and FUN; DEEP depression; hula-hooping & riding scooters; the fear of upsetting people; wanting SO badly to love and be loved; being KIND; giving advice; advocating for my needs; wearing LOTS of colours; reconnecting with the child self; "is reaction a CHOICE?"; being trans; expressing through clothing/fashion; SHAME; and SO much more! Ruth's IG: @drawn.by.laughing SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinweird.com Email: feelinweird@gmail.com Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :) *Please consider contributing $5-50/month to support the show (and receive ~100 bonus episodes)

In which I discuss WHY I believe that framing my neurodiverse brain and the way I experience the world as a DISORDER, a disability and/or a PROBLEM which NEEDS to BE FIXed is only ONE way to frame it (and is potentially very limiting and dangerous). I discuss: decolonization begins within (how I treat my self and my parts) (decolonizing the self); unlearning and questioning the colonial capitalist mindset; reconnecting my parts; learning love and compassion; CURIOSITY as the polar opposite of shame; and SO much more! This was recorded in response to a listener asking for clarity on what I said about "mental illness is a deep disconnection from the self" in a past audio journal. Recorded May 23, 2021. SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinweird.com Email: feelinweird@gmail.com Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :) *Please consider contributing $5-50/month to support the show (and receive ~100 bonus episodes)

Shayne Dyment returns (episodes 60, 72, 73) on his 2-years-out-of-prison anniversary!  Shayne spent 22 years (a life sentence) in prison for murder, he's finding his meaning and NEW ways to express himself emotionally and artistically! CW: brief talk of violence, murder, childhood sexual abuse. We discuss: BPD + ADHD; the CYCLE of violence & pain; understanding BOUNDARIES; true crime & the FASCINATION with violence & murder; learning to be a NObody; PAIN as a teacher; learning the HARD way; the dark side of celebrity; hitting ROCK bottom; stepping out of the intergenerational cycle of pain by SITTING with the pain and emotions; art, creativity, learning to EXPRESS; finding jobs that FIT our needs; understanding PROJECTIONS; the spiritual AWAKENING found in the prison experience; the desire to FIT in; colonialism, academia, hypocrisy; and SO much more! Shayne's Youtube channel! Recorded Nov 3, 2020. SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinweird.com Email: feelinweird@gmail.com Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :) *Please consider contributing $5-50/month to support the show (and receive ~100 bonus episodes)

Two trans artist people talk about gender, masculinity, + processing and reacting to BIG feelings!  Jared was raised female, I was raised male; neither of us identify with our gender assignment (at birth) and THUS we EACH have a unique take on GENDER. We also discuss: Gandalf as the ideal masculine archetype; reclaiming gender; men wearing skirts; crying A LOT; gender as an expression of self; dissociation & depersonalization; gender dysphoria; puffing up when feeling scared; performing gender; deprogramming binary thinking; SHAME, fear + anger; coming BACK into the body (sitting with emotions); and SO much more! Jared's IG: @eatbadart SUPPORT via PATREON*: patreon.com/feelinweird/ Buy MERCH: kyeplant.bandcamp.com/ DONATE via Paypal Review, Rate & Subscribe on Apple Podcasts Instagram: @feelinweirdpod Website: www.feelinweird.com Email: feelinweird@gmail.com Here's a list of EVERY regular & bonus Feelin Weird episode :) *Please consider contributing $5-50/month to support the show (and receive ~100 bonus episodes)